*sorry i didn't update sooner i just want to thank everyone who reads my story:)) this chapter is a little sad but not that bad soo read and comment,vote and become a fan:)*
"behind every beautiful thing, there's some kind of pain."(i liked this quote for this story)
It's day Four of bed rest at the Cullen household. It's been crazy with these vampires and their non-sleeping selves. It gets pretty old when you wake up and see someone looking at you. I mean they act like they have never seen someone sleep. I found out Bella and i have something in common we both sleep talk. So i guess the vampires have nothing better to do than watch me sleep talk. The plus is that Demetri and i have gotten closer we talk everyday. I trust him but i just can't fully. Not after everything my 'father' did to me. The knock at the door pulled me out of my thought. "Come in." i say to whoever is behind the door. Esme opens my door and walks in.
"Hello hunny i brought you your breakfast." She smiles warmly at me. I absolutely love Esme she is like my mother figure when Anya isn't around.
"Thank you Esme." i tell her as i start to munch on my pancakes. As Esme walks out i see Demetri walk in.
"How are you today Tasha?" he asks in an inviting voice.
"I'm fine Demetri. I want to get out of this house though. Not the easiest thing when your a human in a house full of overprotective vampires with super hearing."i frowned. It's just not fair i NEED some fresh air but no i have to stay in bed and.... my thoughts were cut short when i got a hug from Demetri. I still freeze up with him so close to me. I have never been this close to a guy before in fear they all turn out like my father. I want with every fiber of my being to be able to let myself be open all the way to Demetri but i fear i'm broken beyond repair. WHY DID MY 'FATHER' HAVE TO DO THIS?!?! He took any hope i had of having a normal life with a man. Even though Demetri isn't even human i want him to be the man in my life. I have only known him for a few days but it feels like many lifetimes. I hate that i can't get over this fear...but can you blame me? Demetri pulls me back and looks at my face. A look of confusion crosses his face.
"What's wrong Tasha?" he asked with worry consuming his eyes. I quickly looked away.
"Nothing can we just drop it please." I didn't want to admit to him my fears. I just wanted to cry my heart out. Why was i cursed to have this life? Demetri took my chin gently in his hands. I flinched just a little bit but looked up in his eyes. His beautiful golden eyes were now fully consumed with worry.
"Please Natasha tell me what's wrong." he begged while his eyes burned into mine. I had to look away there was so much worry in his eyes i couldn't bare it. i had to let these tears finally fall. I felt like i was going to explode it they weren't released.
"Please just leave." i said quietly i couldn't let him see my cry and worry more. I felt him look at my face for a while. I wasn't sure what he saw but he got up slowly and left the room. I let the long overdue tears fall from my eyes.
ROSALIE'S POV(yay:p)
I heard sniffling coming from Tasha's room. I get off the bed Emmett and I share. I walk closer toward Tasha's door and the sniffling gets louder. I open the door to see Tasha trying to wipe away the evidence. I wonder what's wrong with her? Poor girl has had a hell of a life. I know i'm a bitch to Bella but Tasha has been through SO much. Yes i was raped once but Tasha has been getting raped for 5 years straight, not including the beatings. I see a fresh set of tears collect in her eyes. I move closer toward her and put my arms around her.
NATASHA'S POV(again:D)
Did Rosalie really just hug me? I thought she hated all humans and last time i checked i was still one. Well this is a shocker. I started to unfreeze in her cold embrace. She pulls back and whips the stray tears that betrayed me.
"Tasha hunny what is wrong?" she asks with something i can't identify in her eyes. I can't not tell her she went through the same thing. Well at least she has Emmett now.
"I'm scared." i tell her. A look of pure confusion fills her eyes. I guess i should probably explain. "Rosalie i've been raped and beaten for the past 5 years of my life. I'm afraid of every man that touches me." A look of sadness fills her golden eyes including that emotion i still can't identify. She pulls me into another hug while i just sob into her shoulder and hold onto her for dear life. It feels incredible to finally have that off of my chest. "I want to be able to trust Demetri fully but every time he hugs me i freeze up. I don't want him to know i have never been that close to another guy because of my fear." I end up sobbing even harder and nearly ripping her shirt from hold on so tight. Rosalie is the first person i actually fully opened up to. I haven't even told Anya about how i feel about Demetri. I have a feeling she knows though.
DEMETRI'S POV(yay again:p)
I stand outside Tasha's door i was about to go inside when i heard her sobbing and talking to someone. i listen closely and hear Natasha saying something "I want to be able to trust Demetri fully but every time he hugs me i freeze up. I don't want him to know i have never been that close to another guy because of my fear." i hear this and my cold vampire heart breaks. I want to take that fear away from her. I want to be the person she comes to when she has a problem, even the smallest ones. If i got two minutes in a room with the despicable excuse of father she had, i would do many sinful things. But at this moment in my existence i want to be in that room with Natasha in my arms. I might... no wait i AM in love with Natasha. She is broken and i want to be the one to fix her. She is my every thing from now on.
*I HOPE YALL LIKE THIS CHAPTER I WILL UPDATE SOON:D*
