sitter problems//e.d

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i woke up from my phone vibrating under my pillow and i fell off the bed, lazily, turning off the alarm.

"Uhh" i groan and walking to my bathroom.

i didnt bother to turn on the lights and just continued to do my business. I happen to open one of my eyes and i looked at the dirty bathing suit and clothes that were on a hook near my towels.

"why did i even do that..." I rub my eyes, remembering the night.

it was passionate and slow, but picked up the speed as we moaned louder. He was huge. Bigger than E's.

glad he had a condom.

i wash my face and looked at myself in the mirror.

i look like a mess. I looked at the clock, enough time to curl my hair.

I turned on the curler and walked out to get my phone to listen to some turnt music.

I see a text notification on the messages app.
That's when i started to panic.

Ethan💗💗- good morning beautiful

me: guud morning sunshine.

Goddamnit i hate myself.

Ethan💗💗- how was the beach.

Me: it was cold but whatever i love nature

Ethan💗💗- you came home late, did you & Gray go somewhere else besides the beach

shit

Me: we went to get ice cream and we were too busy talking and lost track of time.

Ethan💗💗- hahah okay. I'll be picking you up like the usual?

Me: im curling my hair atm

He facetimes me and i answer.

"God youre so beautiful." I hear him say in the background.

that same statement by Grayson.

"You look not so bad yourself" i fake smiled and continued to curl my dead hair to make it even more dead.

He laughs. "How are you feeling?" He asks.

"Better." I said plainly.

just forget about him! goddamn. feel the guilt.
Move on.

I hear muffling voices. Ethan goes on pause.

"Ethan baby why are you talking to her?"

oh my god.

The girly voice runs through my mind. I feel the anger building up upon me but i think about Grayson. This relationship is done.

"Im so fucking stupid!" I mutter quietly before i ended the call.

i turn off the curler and called Leah, hoping she would answer.

"Hello?"

"hey. You awake?"

"just finished breakfast. You?"