BitterSweet (Editing){Complete}

Chapter Twenty-Four - Cry

            As I drove off, the waterworks finally started to kick in. The tears were streaming down my face too fast that I had to pull over to the side of a road. I cried over the loss of a relationship, of what could have been if he hadn't been so stupid. Then I thought, we were both stupid.  I chuckle to myself at that thought and finally then decided to wipe my tears away and continue to drive home.

             The first week of heartbreak was the worst. I tried my best to put up a fake facade, but my best friend was always able to see right through it. I mean, it worked on others, and that realization made me even more depressed. Nobody knew me well enough, but one person to tell I was pretending to be the old me.

             One day Autumn came busting into my room when I was at me weakness moment. I tried to put on my fake smile, but she shut me down immediately.

"Stop the bullshit. I know when you're pretending," Autumn said immediately after interrupting my mope session. 

I sigh in defeat. "I know."

"Then why must you continue to do it in front of me?Out of all people I deserve better."

"Don't you get it? I hate myself that I allow myself to get this way over a boy," I hissed. "And the worst part is, deep down I still love him. How can I be so foolish to fall in love!" I exclaim I then chuckle to myself "And to think I use to not believe in it."

"We can't control who we fall in love with, but we can control how we react to it. You don't have to hate yourself, why can't you embrace the fact that you love him. Big deal. Accept the fact that you did. It's okay that you may be broken as of now, but not everything is meant to stay broken forever. Things have a way of mending, just like a fracture can heal. A broken heart can too," she says while comforting me. 

"Are you sure? Because the pain I'm feeling right now is extremely excruciating. Do you know what it feels like to catch your boyfriend red handed in cheating?Let me tell you, it hurts like hell and I don't know how I'm suppose to move pass this Autumn."

"Maybe, I don't know. But I have too much faith in you to  watch you swallow in your misery. It's my turn to save you from your heartache, and you need to start accepting things as it is. It's okay to feel hurt. Don't hold it in. Let it out. I'll make you a deal. Cry for a whole week and after that we'll just start you on the road to recovery."

             I looked up at my best friend and knew right there, at that the moment, that she was one of the few people in my life that I could  count on. Finally, I release heart wrenching sobs. It was that day that I cried my hardest and did not regret a single tear shed.