Since You Left | Joe Sugg x Reader

Chapter Ten

Chapter Ten

I wake up to the sound of cars zooming past out on the street and subtle noises from the awakening city but that's not the best part, it's being in Joe's arms that make it so special. I've missed this, I've missed it more than I've missed my own happiness because this is what makes me happy. I turn, cuddling into his chest and looking up at his sleepy face with his morning frown. I quietly giggle which accidentally wakes him up and he smiles. When he opens his eyes, it's like they were never grey. They're back to normal, all the vibrancy and life has bounced back into them.

"What's so funny?" He asks with a groggy tone, bringing me closer and hugging me tighter.

"Nothing." I smile, resting my head on his chest as he kisses my forehead.

"I love you." He whispers.

"I love you too."

When I get home, I close the door and sigh but it's not the usual exasperated sigh, it's a sigh of relief. Relief that things are better, relief knowing that when I next see him it won't be awkward. However, I don't know if we're back together, it was never spoken about. So, as it stands I'm still single. I look down at my phone when it dings, notifying me of a text which I smile at.

JACKIE:

I'm coming over!!

ME:

See you soon :)

As much as I want to tell Jackie about my night with Joe, I still want to keep it to myself, like it's some secret. I want to hold onto it without people knowing. A knock at the door distracts me from my thoughts and I find myself answering but not to Jackie, to Oli.

"Hey." He smiles. "Can I come in?" I nod, opening the door wider for him and he comes in, sitting down on the sofa as I close it.

"You okay?" I ask with a smile, sitting beside him but not too close. For some reason, I feel awkward. I didn't before but now I do, it's most likely because of how Joe and I finally shared a kiss. Even if Oli and I aren't together, I can't imagine it ever happening.

"Actually, I'm nervous. I need to talk to you about something." He lets me know, shuffling about in his seat as a sign of discomfort. I have a small feeling of what this could be, unsure whether it would be positive or negative, I have a strong idea that it's about our kiss.

"Go ahead," I say supportively, trying to hide the fact that I'm now nervous. I don't want to talk about this but I can't avoid it if Oli wants to discuss it.

"I really like you, Y/N." I sit silently, no emotion evident on my face, I'm not even sure how I should respond. I feel similar to how he feels but fear it's not in the same way. I feel as if those emotions are just purely because he was there for me when I felt no one else was, I'm in love with Joe and there's no looking past that. I open my mouth, words about to spill out, unsure what they'd actually be but Jackie swings open the door with her cheery voice breaking the tension and filling the room.

"I'm here!" She shouts, a beamy smile on her face but shrivels up with embarrassment when she sees that I'm not alone and realises this situation was an awkward one to walk into. I smile shyly, giving her a wave.

"I had no idea you were expecting company," Oli says, a little embarrassed and shy.

"I can wait outside..." Jackie jumps in, sensing that there is an unfinished conversation but I shake my head at her as I make sure Oli doesn't see. I'm not prepared to talk to him yet and as much as I feel like an utter cow by making her think of an excuse for me. I just can't deal with it. Not after last night. Who knows, maybe I would have thrown myself at him with open arms if I didn't find out how Joe felt. But I did and now everything has changed.

"No, we can talk another time?" Oli smiles, standing up and walking past Jackie. I nod and with that, he leaves. Jackie sighs and looks at me with pure awkwardness.

"What was that about?" She asks, sitting down and taking a bite from the ham sandwich she pulled out of her bag.

"It's complicated."

"I've got all day." She tells me with her bright smile, I just nod my head and inform her about it all; excluding Joe, because that's still my secret.

I know I said that this would be up at 6 but now it's up hours later but something came up, I'm so sorry! But here it is, I hope you enjoyed, thank you for reading! :)