Since You Left | Joe Sugg x Reader

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven

"Where are you taking me?" I giggle, both of my arms going out for instant safety. Joe insisted he took me out but decided to cover my eyes with a blindfold. Like you do. His fingers intertwined with mine as he guides the way and I feel something squishy under my shoes. The feeling resembles sand or wet mud, I really hope it's sand. I sigh, shutting up and letting him continue to walk me and then he stops. A bounce in his step, he removes the blindfold gently to reveal the beautiful basically abandoned beach he first proposed to me on. The sea is calm, barely a movement in its icy blue waves with the reflection of the closing night's sky beaming onto it; pinks, oranges, any colour making the sky a perfect picture. It's as beautiful as the night he proposed. "What are we doing here?" I gush, impressed at the amazing view.

"Well," he smiles, kneeling down on one knee, pulling out that small black box. "Can we please pick up from where we left off and will you marry me?" My hands fly to my mouth from both the shock and excitement. I nod my head profusely after the shock fades and Joe slides the ring on my finger. Could this moment be any more perfect? "I love you so much, Y/N." He grins, kissing my lips before holding me tight and not letting me go. This hug lasts forever but I couldn't be happier. Being in his arms means everything to me, it's safety, comfort and happiness all in one.

That night, I fall asleep cuddled up to Joe and I couldn't be happier. That's until all memories of Sarah, Liam and Oli bounce back. Of course, the bad things seem to always ruin the good. Now that Joe and I are back together, I fear Sarah and Liam will act up again but I fear more for Oli's feelings. I wouldn't want him to hurt. That night, I lay awake until three, deciding to go and get myself a drink. This leads to me going for a walk in the frosty night air, biting at my skin but that's what I need right now. Cold, refreshing air to sooth my thoughts. Thoughts that have been so vivid and vicious lately, biting at all the possible good times I have. I walk and walk and walk, passing homeless, drunks and others probably experiencing the same as me; the late night thoughts. Sometimes, I feel as if I shouldn't be moaning so much or just simply worrying about such stupid issues when there are homeless that have to go hungry, tired and cold but that's not just all they go through. And it's not just them, there are places that suffer from poverty and much worse than that, some children that have to walk miles for water; I mean I reminded of that issue plenty of times from the adverts on the TV. And let's not even mention the orphans who don't even have parents, who have to go their entire lives questioning why and everything that comes along with it? And I'm feeling bad for myself over what? Two guys and the struggles of that? That's barely even accountable of an issue. It's simply a first world problem and they annoy me so much but for some reason, we all get caught up in them. Just as I reach my flat, my thoughts now collected and my brain settled and calm, I breathe. I just breathe. I feel like I haven't for so long. The air flushes into my lungs and comes right back out, smoothly and effortlessly. No problems to it. And that's when the realisation hits me, I no longer want to worry, I no longer want to be unhappy. I want to enjoy all of life's possibilities and live everything in the moment and as it comes. I want to enjoy my friends and family, rebuild some broken bridges because at the end of the day there is no time for enemies. And I want to fix things with Oli. I want to fix things with my parents even. Make everything as I want it because I'm in control, not my problems. I just need to tighten their leash because it's my go at taking control. It's my time.

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