Since You Left | Joe Sugg x Reader

Chapter One

Chapter One

After Joe and I got back from the abandoned warehouse as that was what it turned out to be, Liam went to a hospital for a while due to his thoughts and ways around things but then served a little time in prison. However, Sarah went straight to prison but they get out today. I'm terrified. I don't have Joe anymore, we're still friends but it's not the same, it'ts far from the same. Our conversations are always different, the atmosphere is tense and unusual when we're together. When we got out, it brought us closer than ever, we were certain we were going to spend the rest of our lives together but eventually, we just drifted apart, it was then we decided we were better off as friends. So, as for my love life, it stands complicated. I'm still overly in love with Joe yet I have this small budding crush on Oli. Oli White that is, he's sweet and kind but there's something missing, Joe to be exact. No matter how hard I try to focus on what Oli and I have I just can't ever get Joe off my mind. Oli and I aren't a thing yet but we're endlessly flirting, I just don't think I could ever make a move. Especially with him being Joe's friend. Joe has no idea about us, I feel so bad about it, I wouldn't do anything without Joe knowing. I just couldn't do that to him. Oli and Joe are closer than ever right now, sometimes I think they're closer than him and Caspar. I wouldn't want their friendship to end because of a silly crush. I just couldn't be responsible for that. A knock at the door distracts me from my thoughts and I jump off my bed, going straight towards it and greeting Oli with a hug. He and I decided to hang out today, we haven't properly for a while. You see, this whole thing started after Joe and I had broken up. There was a YouTube party, everyone was there of course, I was fortunate enough to go as well. Zoe and I were dancing and having an amazing time; let me also add in that I was very drunk. Let me just emphasise the word very. Oli had approached me with his hair pushed to the right like always, his chocolaty brown eyes full of innocence and happiness and his smile bright enough to light up the room. He had asked if I was okay, I responded truthfully, something I wouldn't normally do but we can blame the alcohol for that. But from what I remember the conversation began to flow really well and soon we were sat at a table endlessly laughing about anything and everything. At that moment I only looked at him as a friend but as time passed and our friendship grew, when he would come over or I'd go over to his a single butterfly would flutter around. And then the next time, there were two butterflies and it continued to grow. I was officially crushing on Oli White, also known as my ex's best friend. And this was what made it more awkward, let alone the fact that I'm still hopelessly and unconditionally in love with Joe.

"Y/N?" Oli giggles, catching my attention as I stare at the blank wall.

"Yes. Hello." I say awkwardly, a little startled.

"You seem a little spaced out. Are you okay?" He smiles, edging closer to me, his hand touching my arm ever so gently.

"Yeah, I'm okay. Just a little too into my thoughts today."

"What are you thinking about? Of course, that's if you want to talk about it." He says nervously.

"Oh! Calm down," I laugh, giving him a small hug, something I have become a lot more comfortable doing. "I'm just thinking about everything really."

"Okay, but if you want to talk about it, I'm here." Oli is so sweet and kind, he resembles so much of Joe's personality. I sometimes worry that deep down I'm only crushing on him for that reason but barely realise it. I wouldn't ever intend to hurt him like that.

"Thank you." I smile, walking over to the sofa where I sit and continue to reply to emails.

"Noo! You promised you would hang out with me!" Oli moans, confiscating my laptop which I grab for but fail miserably when I fall onto his lap. He giggles, helping me up but our faces are only centimetres away; that leads to me leaning in spontaneously, kissing his lips but none of us pulling away staying in the kiss. We both know we shouldn't be doing it, we both know it's wrong without Joe's consent but I can't help it. I end up pulling away, sighing.

"I'm sorry, Oli."

"What's the matter?" He asks with a concerned smile, pushing away a strand of hair covering my face.

"This is wrong, not when you're Joe's friend."

"You're right." He frowns, looking down with a guilty face.

Why does it all have to be so awkward?

Thank you so much for reading, I'm so excited to be continuing on Since I Met You. I love the story so much and I love your support, it means so much to me. It really gives me the confidence and motivation to continue writing as cheesy as it sound but I am seriously grateful, so this is me thanking you for what feels like the billionth time! But, I don't care because I am soo thankful!

-Shannon