The reason I walk in the light

Chapter #5 June

I didn't realize how much I've missed Day's lips. Day has improved since the last time we kissed... Seems he's been practicing. He slowly kisses on my lips then goes down my jawline and neck. Each one being more gentle than the last.

I wrap my hands around his neck and soak in the moment.  Day's hair is just as silky as I remember it. His eyes are so pure, so blue. But then other memories hit me. And they hit me hard. I remember that Day barely knows me right now and I shouldn't be doing this.

I gather my remaining energy, and slowly, I break away from him. A part of me wants to hold onto Day forever but I know I can't. He looks up at me questioningly.

"I can't do this." I say on the verge of crying. "At least not yet." And there goes the first tear. Hold yourself together, June, build up your wall. JUST. STOP. CRYING.

"Shhh it's ok June." Day says while tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear. "I'm sorry if it was too soon." He starts putting his head down.

My knees give out at the worst moment and I fall. I don't even know why exactly but I fall right into Day's arms.

With a little grunt he picks me up and carries me inside.

Day holds onto me so gently, like I am a fragile piece of glass and I could shatter at any moment. Come to think of it, I am.

He places me on my bed and starts walking away. Without a thought I call out to him,"Stay." And I patt the spot beside me.

He turns around gives me a weak smile and lays down on top of my bed sheets by me. There was an uncomfortable atmosphere around us, but I didn't feel it for too long because I feel asleep.

                      a few hours later

I lift open one eye, expecting to see Day by me, but he was gone. I sprang up and out of bed and searched my whole apartment, hoping he was playing a joke on me.

I couldn't find him anywhere. Day must've left at night when I fell asleep. I can't believe I just broke down last night. Why can't I NOT ruin something for once in my life.

I sighed, and started getting ready for my day.

I turn the door knob, about to leave when I get a call from Tess.

"He found the journals." Is all she said in an anxious voice. Then she hung up.

At first I didn't know what she was talking about but then I remembered. Day will hate me.

In those ten years without him, I experienced a lot of thoughts about Day. I wrote them all down in pocket sized journals. Telling our whole entire relationship throughout. Both the ups and downs. Everything that Day had questions about were gonna be answered, no doubt.

But I know exactly were to find him. I know the truth would've came out one way or another. I put on my coat, and head out. Taking my time, I think of every possible outcome of this. None of them good, all of them end with Day leaving me.

As I'm looking around, observing everything, I see a flash of blond hair. It's Day.

I prepare myself for the worst. And start approaching him.

Just as I was about to turn the corner, I hear a gunshot go off followed by a scream. A scream of pain and it sounded like Day's.

A/N: Please comment if you want lots of short chapters (like this one) or a few long chapters. Also sorry if some parts don't make sense because I'm making this story up as I write. Some ideas come, overs go and blah blah. Hope you enjoy this so far :)