jongdae's list ; [xiuchen]

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"Are you sure?" I nodded as an answer to Junmyeon's question. "You're coming back right?"

"Of course, I love my work, I love what I do." I murmured as I fixed the things I need.

"Why do I feel like you're not coming back?"

I laughed at Junmyeon's statement. Junmyeon is my friend and my boss. I work for him, well, I am an architect, and he's an engineer, we've been working in each other's side for who knows how long?

"Junmyeon—" i held both of his shoulders. "I will come back, I just need a break from things." I smiled at him.

Well, you know, all of us need a break. I have been thinking about breaking away from the life I have, temporarily. I want to do things that I haven't done since I started working.

Ever since all I did was to study, I never got the chance to enjoy my high school and college life because I was too engrossed in studying. When I graduated, it was the same. Junmyeon and I worked and worked, I didn't do other things, just eat, sleep, and work. Yes, I have a boring life.

Unlike Junmyeon. He has a very interesting life. We're busy, but he finds time to date. Like how?

And since then, I thought about myself, doing other things, enjoying life. I don't want to die with a boring experience.

"Maybe this is for the better." Junmyeon spoke. "Date someone, Minseok-ah."

My forehead creased. "What the hell are you talking about?"

"Try finding a boyfriend or a girlfriend, you're not getting any younger, my friend."

Dating isn't in my mind when I planned this break from my daily life.

I rolled my eyes at him. I don't really like the idea of dating. I don't know, I don't want to be too attached to people who will never actually stay.

"I don't need a lover, Junmyeon." I said as I placed the strap of my bag on my shoulder. "I'm just going to have a trip. Enjoy myself around South Korea."

"Use this break as a chance. Find someone who'll be willing to spend a lifetime with you, someone who's willing to do everything just to be with you, Minseok."

I waved Junmyeon goodbye.

I really don't like to undergo in things like those. I don't believe in things like those. Spending a lifetime with someone? Who would actually do that for someone? Who would actually give up doing his own necessities just to spend a lifetime with you? What kind of person is someone who's willing to do everything just to be with you?

Rays from the sun woke me up,  the light hitting my face, I opened my eyes only to see me room. It looks dull really. It was full of post-its, crumpled papers scattered on the floor. Blueprints that wasn't even placed orderly on my study table began to find itself lying on the floor. Pencils and rulers on the chair and in the trash can.