Can she stop saying that I don't ever study or put my heart into it. She never even acknowledges it when I do. It just freaking hurt so damn much when I keep trying and trying and she never cares until when I am not. I'm trying to get better, trust me I am. I know I suck. I know I'm not good enough. Right now I'm blinking so much tears I literally can't see clear. Do you think I spend those hours fucking around just using my phone. Fuck no. It is just so fucking frustrating and hurtful to know you are never working hard enough, never quite good enough even though she accepts you. And it's one thing to expect nothing and another to expect low things. It's one thing to be not as good and another to be worse. Fuck. It just hurts.
- m.x.f
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