A new life Sequel To A Kind Of Life CSI MIAMI fanfic

Allie

I knew it the moment that I saw him sleeping. I knew, that it will be so hard to back off. I made a promise to myself and told Calleigh I'm no longer interested. But it's not true. I am.
However my life belongs here, not in Miami. And he will be very unhappy to stay here when he will recover. His work is his life- said Eric.
However it was so nice to chat. He's still charming apart from his scary looks. He's...different. More...blunt? I like it I must say.
When he started complementing me, I melted. What a stupid girlie I am. I couldn't resist and I kissed him. Passionately. Sitting at the side of the bed, I felt his warm hand stopping me from moving away. As his left hand is OK, he kept me close in the strong embrace. Geez. It's so good to do it again, and so awful it's only that little...
I saw his tired eyes watching  me carefully, like if asking if he may continue. I closed mine to feel the moment. He touched my neck and pulled it closer. My whole body moved, being almost on his. I was terrified I could break something, do any harm, but he didn't seem to be in pain. On the contrary- being held so close to him I felt he's ready for more- which was obviously impossible. So I moved a bit, but he squeezed my arm to stop me. Started kissing my neck and I almost lost control. The sound of door being open returned me back to reality. We both looked the direction only to see stunned Eric with open mouth.
"H..Hi " he said. "I..I...bring some coffee." He stormed out
"Well... you rebel have just messed up." I smiled. "I'd better be going."
He hung his head. I saw his disappointment.Then he asked "will you come back?"
"I will."
I took my things and left. On the corridor there was Eric with a cup of coffee. I felt I owe him an explanation.
"Eric" I said quietly
He raised his head." Yeah?"
"It's not like that "
"Like what?"
"Lee- ... Tim and I, were a couple for some time. I can't just erase him from my head. "
"But you said you're not together anymore. You know about Calleigh. You told her you're over."
"I did but we've been thru a lot together. I can't just stop thinking about him. You're being loyal, I understand but it's not like that. I was by his side not only for good days, Eric. Also for much much worse. "
"Really? We probably have different views on what worse means, Allie. His death was hell. Whatever was going on here was only a bad day".
"You know nothing about him here.  He was depressed, unable to sleep and constantly drunk. I helped him overcome it all."
"Drunk? Speed's drunk? In 13 years I saw him drunk- I mean drunk, not drinking- twice. He never loses control. Never."
"You're so wrong Eric! He was so broken that it got him addicted."
"I'll never believe that, Allie. Never! I've known him for 13 years and.."
"...he got drunk every day, Eric!!!Since early morning!!! Only working days were different. Those days he got drunk in the evening. He was drinking with lab workers, with cops from the precinct, complete strangers and alone, if there was no one nearby. I covered him at work, helped him when he needed.
If you don't believe, ask the Fed who's at the hospital. Ask his GP, who diagnosed him or even a nurse on the 3rd floor of this very same hospital, where he was staying nights connected I.V. to medicines preventing him from drinking! So stop judging me, because YOUR Speed in not MY Lee!! Yes, I know I said we're over. Yes, I know I told Calleigh I'm done. But I'm not, Eric. Even now, looking badly bruised, skinny and so fragile, he still matters to me. As a man. And I won't apologize for this- not to you, not to anybody cause I deserved it. And what did Calleigh do for him, huh?
Did she help him in need? Loved him when she had her chance? Stayed here with him? No. She didn't. So even if I know this has no future, I will be here until he goes away to Miami. And you cannot make me stop that. I'm sorry. "
I felt the tears in my eyes and fought desperately not to cry in front of him ,so I turned back.
He stood in silence unable to say anything.
"I'm so sorry, Allie.Looks like Speed I know isn't the same anymore. And I misjudged you. Forgive me please."
Then he turned around and entered the room.
And I left.