Sparks of Destiny

IX ~ A

Ashley

I was late at the concert, because of my excitement to see him. Actually, it was because of the traffic. I was worried I wouldn't able to watch him and his band.

"Bye." I said to dad. He drove me with his motorcycle.

"Text me whenever, I will pick you up."

I simply smiled and nodded. I was hurrying. I ran to the see the stage. Thankfully, I had a clear view from a spot on one side of the gym. I was surprised and grateful I could watch them. The song was about to end. I worried it would be over. But when Lance took the other guitar and gave Elly the mic, I became hopeful.

HE WILL SING!

"This song, I dedicate to someone special. All of you are special, so I dedicate this song to all of you. This will be—" He paused, maybe of nervousness, but he never got nervous. "This is an original song I composed with the help of my band mates." He smiled then the crowd cheered. Including me.

He strummed the chord then they hit it all at once. The lyrics of the song were amazing. He said it was for someone special. I didn't believe him that that was for all of the people in the crowd. He wrote it. And I believed he wrote it for someone who had inspired him so much, someone special to him.

I didn't dare hope it would be me. Maybe it was Jane. Jane all along. It hurt whenever that thought came. He loved someone who wasn't me. I wouldn't be surprised if it was really her. I wanted to know who, but I changed my mind because pain took over me.

I enjoyed the concert. I didn't care about the hundreds other people, it was just him and me. I imagined he was singing for me. At some point it felt real. I felt he was looking at me all the time. Like he was really singing just for me. That's what I was always great for, right? Imagining things. Imagining thing that would never happen...

Because baby, you're the reason why...

He said the last line then they went down the stage. I wanted to have a picture with him, but I never had a chance to. My friends told me I could simply ask for it, they said he was a nice guy, he would let me. But I didn't because once I did, he would know.

I seemed to be lost because I didn't know where to go next. I couldn't find my friends. They were calling me but I silenced my phone and forgot to check it because of the concert.

"I hope you enjoyed it." Miraculously, he was talking to me. 

"You did great." I said. We had a conversation; we needed to talk louder to hear each other & I loved how we had to lean in to each other to hear it. I was just a simple thing but little things were often the best things.

I asked him about his girlfriend. He said he didn't have one and Jane was his past. I didn't know if he was lying or hiding things for he seemed to be against that topic. He also asked me why I was late and my friends were looking for me. "Wait, have you seen Martha and my friends from upstage? I was looking for them."

"I saw them earlier, they were around here somewhere." He stretched his neck to look higher.

"Okay, I will just go look for them." I said. I wanted to be with him longer. I wanted to extend that conversation we had, but I guess that was enough. He was so handsome! Even more handsome than in ordinary days. I've never seen someone so gorgeous in plain white T-shirt, pants and sneakers.

"I can go help you find them." Okay, I literally melted! What?! Did I just heard those words of these were only from my effing fantasy again? Was I dreaming? I didn't want to wake up.

"No," Fudge, *insert curses* Yes, I want Elly. Yes! I wanted you to come look with me. I wanted to have more time with you. I guess those words will remain unsaid. "I mean..." If I could just change what I said. Rewind please? I saw where Reinne stood. "Oh, there they are! I will go to them, bye." I rushed to my friends.

I told them why I was late. They also said Elly told them about the ticket. So I told them the whole story after the event. I shared some bits of the conversations we had.

God, help me. I thought that my feelings were getting worse.

Late that night, I imagined possible things we might have done if I didn't see Reinne, if I said yes. What would we be talking about?

I sighed, realizing I should stop hoping. There would be no other way to change it. I couldn't rewind it. No one could. The world was full of "what if's" , imagine what would happen if we could see the point of view of other choices if we had chosen the other. But we couldn't. We just have to stick into that one we chose, that one decision we picked.