MY BIGGEST IDOL

Chapter 8

felixsandman: Oscar, I have one question for you

oscarenestad: ask mee :P

felixsandman: okay, so you told me you don't like the attention. Is that because of the social anxiety or anything else? I'm just curious, you don't have to tell me. There are so many celebrities who just wants to be famous and get all the attention but you're not like them.

oscarenestad: some of it is because of the social anxiety I still have but otherwise it's because it feels like you're using your supporters if you just think and care about yourself all the time. If I get all the attention, everything is about me but I wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for all the supporters so they deserve atleast as much attention as me..

felixsandman: I have said it before but I'll say it again, how can someone be this wonderful? I have never met someone who cares this much about others, nearly more than they care about themselves?

oscarenestad: you're wonderful too Felix

oscarenestad: and the thing about caring about others more can be both good and bad, it's mostly bad to be honest. Some people will use you just because they know you will do "everything" for them since you want to be nice.

felixsandman: oh, I can understand that ://

oscarenestad: It also feels like I can't do what I want since the media is always making up rumors about me that are far away from real. I'm sorry if it feels like I'm complaining but I just had to get it out and you're the only one except from my parents that I can trust.

felixsandman: oh my god, you don't have to apologize Oscar. It's not very weird that you feel this way, the media sucks sometimes and they just want to make money even if it hurts peoples' feelings so bad. But you can talk to me about anything, I'll always listen to you <3

oscarenestad: you're just so amazing, I can't describe how happy I am that I started to talk to you. I'm really starting to wonder who fanboys the most out of us two

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