Never Ending Thoughts

monday may 8 2017

3:32 pm
why do people think it's okay to go from talking all day everyday to not talking at all the next??
did I do something wrong?
is this my fault?
maybe I should've listened to her n waited...
I needed the physical attention and comfort and that's what you gave me but I still wasn't happy
I thought this was the best decision for the both of us...was I right?
you seem fine without me and I'm happy with someone else
I don't want you anymore I don't miss you I don't crave your attention you somewhat disgust me
but why her? you told her all about us she pretended to be my friend and knew how much you meant to me and she still does it maybe not intentionally but carelessly selfishly just like you
but it's a little different for you... you know you don't care it's sad I stooped so low for someone like you
I had faith in you in us but you didn't
it's okay though because I didn't get too attached I left so I wouldn't get hurt everything's okay
this new someone is not new he's been there before
before you actually
we had our ups and downs said things we didn't mean but he has my heart your dead to me

I'm glad I had enough courage to apologize since we both know I suck at that
I shouldn't have been such an asshole when you tried to apologize
I didn't wanna get sucked back in but I knew you were the one
I didn't wanna move on although I caught feelings he was only to pass time I honestly was thinking about you the whole time

10:31 pm
I kinda wish we didnt have a past so things could be better for us now
your my best friend and you always will be
my day 1
bestie
R.O.D