Is This Finally Over? Is This Finally The Future?

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When you Knew you fucked up it was all over. I never really thought that i was going to mess up till i did. I fucked up my life and i couldnt get it back. I lay on the streets of an old broken down town. I didnt really know why any body didnt care about me. I was always a nobody. My mother and father are gone. My Mother died cause of my stupid ass grandfather.

After my mothers death My father went away and went on with his job. He never really knew me. I never really knew him so im homeless. Id wish that one day my father would come back and love me again. He only loves his job and money.

Every so often i would stop at the homless shelter and take a shower for school. Sadly im not out of school yet. im only in Eigth grade. The good thing is that i have nice clothes at my little make shift home in and abbondoned warehouse. The bad thing is that i get bullied at school. I mean i have some firneds but i get bullied by mostly everyone at school.

My Uncle Mikey I havent seen him in years. He went off and moved to Hong Kong 10 years ago. My aunt Michelle has been stopping by school to pick me up like twice each week. I go over to her house for a day or two. Aunt Kylie, aunt Rebecca and uncle Jimmy have been off somewhere living there lives in new york. Ive only ever seen them twice in my life. As for my other uncle we dont talk about him. Nither as my grandfather. My gandfather was a horrible man. He Injured me when i was still in my mothers stomach and he tried to murder me when i was two. That man has done so many crimes he got the death penalty and was killed by 20 police officers.

I hate my life. I wish i had my moher and father back. I wish my aunts and uncles lived with us. I just wish my life was like it was 14 years ago.