When We Collide (Harry Styles)

Chapter 15

I woke up with the empty feeling that I had finally come to register. The bed was empty and cold and the weather outside seemed to represent that. I remember falling asleep on Harry, but as I looked around and saw he wasn't around I came to the conclusion that he left after I was asleep because there was no trace of him ever being here. The window was closed, his shoes weren't at the end of my bed and the other side of my bed was made to show there wasn't another body who accompanied me.

A heavy sigh left my lips as the constant thoughts raced through my mind. I knew if Harry were to have stayed last night, that it would be too early. I mean to me, we've just met and I don't know anything about him. I guess the fact that he hadn't stayed put my mind at ease. I lifted myself out of my bed and walked to my wardrobe ready to take on the day. 

Everything in my room was like a gift I was giving myself. I spent the majority of my day just searching through my items, the clothes that were neatly folded in my draws were now spread across my carpet in a mess. Shoes were everywhere, I had books towered around me like I was trying to hide myself away from the world. I didn't care about food or anything else in that moment, all I cared about was the fact I was getting to know my past. I hadn't found anything to trigger back my memory but I knew there had to be something. 

I stood up and looked around the mess that was now my room, deciding I'd clean it up later after I finished looking through my room. I made my way over to my wardrobe where I could only guess there was more clothes. How much clothes do I need? I thought as I opened the door and looked at the clothes hanging on the rack. Dresses after dresses all lined up neatly, sorted by their colours. I ran my hand over the dresses before looking down at a shine that caught my eyes. I reached down and picked up the source, finding a photo frame.

There was a picture of me and Alex, my 'ex boyfriend' I guess. It was our ball night, the only recent clear memory I have. The night that was the best and worst night of my life. The night ran through my head like it happened yesterday and I wanted it to stop, but it just kept going, running around so fast like it was trying to win a race. A race to break me.

July 25, 2010.

"Are you sure I look alright Mum? This has to be perfect" I asked as I looked in the mirror. My light peach ball gown that came just above my knees and the light pink heels with the frills on the top came staring back at me. I've never felt more beautiful but I couldn't shake the nervous feelings off.

"Yes, Jasmine, you look beautiful! Now hurry up, Alex and Sierra's date will be here any minute" She said as she rushed off to make sure her garden looked perfect for the photos.

I turned around looked at my best friend, in her beautiful floor length deep purple, strapless gown. She stood up and walked over to me, "You ready Jas?" 

I nodded and grabbed her hand, we stayed silent for a moment until the ringing of the door bell shot through the house. 

"Here we go" I whispered as I looked down at our hands before turning around and walking towards the door, Sierra in tow. I came to the top of the stair case and had a clear view of Alex and Sam in their tuxes and they looked amazing. Our presence was noticed when Alex's head shot up to look at us. A goofy smile spread across his face as I descended down the stairs, I smiled back at him before looking down again to watch I didn't fall.

I made it to the ground with out falling and silently praised myself as I walked over to Alex.

"You look beautiful" He whispered as he took my hands in his and brought me in for a kiss. Our kiss didn't have the usual spark as it did when we first started dated, which is why tonight had to go perfect. So we could get that spark back. 

"Thank you" I said back as I pulled away, I looked in his eyes and was immediately lost like I am every time I look at them. The deep blue that they hold always makes me feel like I'm melting and it was a feeling I really enjoyed.

My Mother brought me back into reality as she cleared her throat before ushering us out to the backyard for photos. We did a couple of group ones before doing our single shots. I never felt awakward around my Mother so when Alex and I kissed for a photo I didn't feel the need to be embarrassed or ashamed because she was like my best friend. She always has been.

The dance went by smoothly but as the night drew to a close, and I couldn't find Alex anywhere, I went looking for him. We were meant to be staying at a motel down the street and I wanted to get there soon, because these heels were killing me. 

I searched around the dance floor to see if he was there dancing but I saw only a few couples sharing their last dances. I found Sierra and Sam walking towards me with concerned looks on their faces, I ran up to them.

"I can't find Alex have you seen him?" I asked almost panicked at the possible thoughts.

They looked at each other almost like asking who was going to tell me, right then I knew what had happened.

"No, no you're wrong. He would never" I said with a raised voice as tears started to well up.

Sierra shook her head, before holding my hand, "I'm sorry" She whispered as she pulled me in for a hug. I shoved her away.

"With who?" I shouted over the music that was still blaring through the speakers.

"Jasmine, it's not impor-"

"WITH WHO?!" I shouted cutting Sierra off. I needed to know.

"With Greg from homeroom" She said in a low voice. My eyes widened in surprise at the name she had just said.

"Wait, Greg? You mean as in the guy Greg?" I asked suddenly more interested than devastated that he had cheated on me.

She nodded and I laughed. I laughed so hard that I started crying. I couldn't believe that my boyfriend was gay. How does that even happen? This was not what I expected.

Sierra and Sam looked at me like I was crazy as I kept laughing. I slowly calmed down and looked at them, tears still rolling down my face. 

"I can't believe this" I said with a chuckle, "Let's go" I looped my arm with Sierra's and spun her around, walking towards the exit.

"Wait you're not mad?" She asked with concern in her voice, obviously thrown off by my reaction.

"I mean, sure but if he's gay, he's gay. I can't really stop that, can I?" I said as I still laughed.

Present.

I laughed to myself as the memory floated through my mind. Although it was an interesting memory, I wish it wasn't the only one.

Sorry it's short and a shit chapter! I didn't update yesterday because I was out the majority of the day and went to sleep early! My chapters should start getting better next week when school starts again! Please leave me chapter suggestions!!