RUTHLESS || XXXTENTACION STORY ||

07

KIITANA

"What is it?" I stated in a stern tone, really wanting to get this conversation over with. 

X made me really confused, and I honestly don't like that-- especially when I don't have to deal with it. I'm sure he has something else to do, or some other girl to mess with at this party. 

I could tell that he was trying to control his composure when I said that to him, a not so friendly glint was in his eyes that had indicated that my thoughts were true.

"I'm just trying to apologize for the way I've acted when we met. I don't really fuck with people, so don't take what I did the wrong way." He had shared, shrugging his shoulders a little as he gave me the short explanation.

My eyes had wandered off of him, "Okay." Was all I said to him, not knowing what to say after that. I believe him, yes, but now that I got my answer, I just want to part ways sincerely. 

I can't hardly deal with myself not wanting to deal with people, so what can I possibly do with someone else that acts the same? 

Nothing.

"So, that's it? You have nothing else to say?" X spoke with confusion mixed in his tone, taking a step forward. 

It made me slightly nervous when he did that, and I couldn't move back, since my behind was pressed against the balcony's rail. I cursed at myself in my head, wondering why I didn't at least stand by the slide door.

His arms had secured me in place by holding onto the rails in a tight grip, his body warmth letting me know for sure that he was extremely close. I felt light air graze my cheek, a scent of mint filled my nose. X's face had gotten close to mine, but he had shifted his head a little and that made his lips touch my ear lobe.

I held in my breath, not even wanting to move a muscle as my personal space wasn't so personal anymore. 

I wasn't sure what to do it, I'm not used to an intimate position like that, so I was in between a wall and a hard place. As well as pondering if I should be okay with this or be highly offended. But then again, I was kinda on the okay side because my heart was fluttering just by being this close. 

"Um, X, what are-"

"Call me Jahseh." He had cut me off, his warm breath against my ear made me feel chills all over my body.

So, that was his name this whole entire time, I was starting to think it was another of saying goodbye the way that he had used it last time. And I couldn't clarify anything with Imani because she didn't know it either.

Now, I know.

I gulped, but not hard enough for him to hear it, "I- Okay, Jahseh. What are you doing? Why are you so close?"

I felt the vibration from his chest as he chuckled, his left hand guiding its way to rest on the dip of my waist, finally lifting his head up to face me as I turned to look back at him. 

"You ask too many fucking questions."

"Because you avoid answering them."

"When?" 

"Just now."

Jahseh kissed his teeth, "You haven't fucked with a nigga like me have you?"

"What?" My eyebrows furrowed, not really understanding his reference at all.

What was that supposed to mean? 

"Have you even fucked with any niggas at all?" He questioned differently, and judging by his face, it was his turn to be confused.

I stared at him blankly, trying to figure out how I could answer this without embarrassing myself in front of him. I mean, what would he think about me if he knows that I'm not like all the other girls that'll just throw themselves at a good looking guy with money. I have respect for myself, and would much rather give myself away to a man that is bound to treat me the way that I deserve.

The longer I waited, the quicker it had dawned on him apparently because his brows had raised up and his hold had loosened up on my side. 

"You've never fucked with anyone, have you?"

"Look who's the one asking all the questions." I mumbled, rolling my eyes as to move my gaze from him. I kinda didn't like his use of the 'F' word, it was making me cringe every time he did. Now, he knows the truth, and he'll just sit here and laugh at me. Probably even tell Ski and Imani and they'll all laugh at me. 

"Make fun of me all you want, but no matter what you say, I have a pride with myself and my body." I stated, placing my hand on his chest to push him back from me, but unfortunately, he didn't budge. 

Jahseh's hand that was on the rail went up to clasp around my hand that occupied on his upper body, "I wasn't about to do that shit. I like the fact that you're innocent, love."

I was bewildered when he had admitted that, feeling myself go to ease slowly as I know now that I don't have to worry so much. 

This boy is filled with surprises, and he definitely amazes me. I feel so drawn to him that I don't think that I'll ever get him out of my head. He's very different from the other guys that I've witness-- most likely because he is actually taking interest of me, surprisingly. 

The pad of his thumb gently rubbed against my hip suddenly, a not so familiar emotion had made the sparkle in his eyes become dim as he lowered his head to have his face closer to mine, flicking his sight towards my lips.

And I've panicked.

But I did brace myself for what was about to happen, and I mostly did feel my stomach do multiple back flips. I was finally going to get that kiss that I've always wanted to experience by none other than Jahseh himself-- XXXTentacion as referred by most. As I was about to close my eyes and pucker my lips a little, I felt his soft lips being pressed upon my cheek, dangerously close to the corner of my own lips. 

I was awfully surprised and felt a little unsatisfied because of my high hopes for this moment, but I couldn't help but to respect the move that he made. 

It wasn't my time yet.

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Incredibly sorry for the wait, as always, it's school. But, school is officially over, yaaaassssss! I'm graduating next Friday, so I'll be updating a lot more now that I have time. 

Chapter eight will be coming around soon, most likely over the weekend.

And I will be editing over the weekend, too. Lord knows how many errors I've made.

Thanks for reading.

-N