Adopted By The Janoskians

Weighing Scales

*Mias POV*

After sleeping like a baby I woke up. I looked around and was really confused at where I was. Then all the events of last night poured back into my head and I realised I was at James' house. Not long after James and Skip entered the spare room and asked how I was

"I'm good" Lies I felt like shit at the moment but it was best to let it go. 

James informed me that it was just us 3 home as his parents had gone to work and his sisters to school.  oh yeah school I hope they don't bring it up any time soon I cant deal with school at this point in my life.

"Breakfast is ready downstairs when you're ready" skip spoke, my eyes widened I swallowed the lump in my throat "o-okay I'll freshen up and come down"

*Skips POV *

When I told mia her breakfast was ready she seemed nervous like I had said something she was fearful of, I shrugged it off and decided it was nothing too much to worry about.

Not long after Mia arrived downstairs. We all sat at the table and ate our breakfast.  Mia looked like she was deep in her thoughts, ahe wasn't eating just playing with her food,  "mia are you okay" I asked barely above a whisper. 

"Yeah im good not hungry im gonna go get changed" she responded a bit too cheery for mine ans James' liking. 

"Do you think she's not eating purposely daniel?" James questioned me

This is exactly what I was thinking.  I have always thought that she was a little too skinny but it never occurred to me that she was not eating.  it was almost as if a light bulb went off in my head as I realised maybe that's why she reacted that way when I told her that breakfast was ready. 

"Yeah, she looked real worried when we told her breakfast was ready.  We'll have to tell the boys James" I spoke softly

James replied,  "No no not the boys she wouldn't want that maybe Gina.  She'll have more of an idea on what to do"

Now that sounded like a better plan.

*Mias POV *

I was all ready, James and Skip decided we should go to the Brooks' house to chill,  after all that was where I was living until they all found a place. 

When we arrived I went upstairs to Luke and Jais room I knocked and entered as I was greeted by a bone crushing twin sandwich.

James and Skip were talking to Gina in the kitchen.  Beau joined me, Luke and Jai and we sat and talked for a while, I felt a lot more comfortable around them. I mean yeah I suppose I was still pretty quiet but I'd join in with some conversation. 

It had been a while now and I was wondering what was taking Skip and James so long, Almost as if on cue they walked through the door.

~~~~3 hours later~~~~

Gina shouted me down to talk to her. I was getting nervous. Why would she want to speak to me oh no...school

I slowly opened the door to see Gina,  she smiled and gave me a hug maybe this won't be as bad as I thought it was going to be?

She started  "Mia, darling. James and Skip are worried about you,  they think that you're too skinny and that you aren't eating."

oh shit!

"Please don't be mad because they just want the best for you"

I thought what I could say to make them leave me alone I spoke the first words that popped into my head

"I am eating and I can eat I just wasn't hungry today" I said with a fake smile on my face

That's when the words I was dreading to hear came out from her mouth.

"okay I do believe you but can you just do something for me?"

"umm what do you mean?"

"I want you to weigh yourself for me"

NO NO NO NO this can't be happening

Gina placed the scaled infront if my feet I had no option other than to stand on, I stood still. Next thing I know im lifted into the air and placed on the scales.  Gina let go and look at the weight. I couldn't bare to look, im too heavy I know I am.

The look on Ginas face worried me.

"Mia you're seriously underweight you weigh 70 pounds and you're supposed to weigh 130.....I'm really worried about you"

I burst out crying ans Gina rushed over and cradled me I really do have an issue.  I thought I was fine I was just trying to be skinny,  but wait I can't possibly be underweight. I'm fat.

"Gina, I'm not underweight at all they must be wrong" I said in between sobs

"Listen honey,  they aren't wrong,  but hey how about you show me you can eat,  here eat this" she said handing me a chocolate bar. 

Great this is just great how am I possibly going to eat that.

I slowly peeled back the wrapper and took a small bite out of the bar of fat and oh best not forget the sugar. I felt so guilty.  I thought I was going to be sick. I managed another bite when I'd had enough I couldn't do this anymore I jumped up and ran to upstairs to the bathroom. I pulled out my trusty blade and did what I always have..but this time was different It didn't take all of the guilt away it didn't make me feel better, I didn't have that weight lifted from my shoulders so I did what I never thought I would do. I ran to the toilet and threw up. I made sure I got rid of everything that I had eaten anything I could,  get rid of everything that was physically possible.

I felt someone run in, I was too busy being sick to look.  Whoever it was held up my hair and rubbed my back.   I stuck my fingers down my throat, totally ignoring the perosn with me. I continued until I was sure I had got all of the bad out of my body.

I stood up and saw that it was Beau I gave him a weak smile, his eyes were full of sorrow and pity. I hate it when people do that I feel so guilty. I walked to the sink and brushed my teeth.  Just as I was about to leave Beau grabbed my wrist and  I winced,  ouch right on my fresh cuts.  He looked down at my wrist and I could tell he was hurt, I'd disappointed yet another person. He kissed each scar,  it made me feel slightly better,  he walked me to his room and we sat on his bed.  He asked me one question...

"Why?"

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Okay so it was on hold and I felt bad so I decided to just update with this chapter,  I'm not sure when the next chapter will be im busy with exams and got loads of stuff going on at the moment but thanks for reading :)

Luci xx