Breaking Through {JimmyYumaxDeuce}

Chapter 2

Jimmy's pov

I woke up with a yawn, stumbling out of my bunk.

I walked back to the bathroom, seeing my messy purple hair in a birds nest basically.

I had a rough night of sleep and I know exactly why.

I ran my hand through my hair a few times before quickly brushing my teeth and walking out to the lounge.

I saw Aron and Arina sitting near eachother as they argued over something.

I walked fully into the room, the both of them going silent.

I raised an eyebrow as I sat down on the opposite end of the couch.

Arina quickly got up and sprinted to the bunks, Aron glaring at her back as she ran.

I looked over at him, catching his gaze every couple seconds but he would never truly look at me.

"why won't you look at me? Am I that repulsive to you? " I asked bitterly.

"you're not repulsive " he muttered, looking at the floor.

"then look at me" I demanded, annoyance in my tone.

" look Jimmy, maybe I just don't like looking at people" he said.

"oh really? You didn't seem to have a problem looking at the bimbo as she gave you a blowjob last night! " I spat.

I watched Aron clench his fists, quickly getting up and storming out of the bus.

I wasn't going to bother going after him because I knew he'd be back once he was done over reacting.

I got up, walking back to the bunks.

"don't you think that comment about the bimbo was a bit harsh? " Arina asked, raising an eyebrow.

"harsh? Do you even know what harsh is?  Harsh is bringing home a girl every night knowing that you're best friend is in live with you but not caring! " I sobbed, sitting in my bunk

"sorry... " Arina mumbled "I'll go get him.. "

"don't bother. He'll be back when he's done being a bitch about it " I muttered.

" You know how he gets Jimmy!  It's not his fault that he's fucked up because of all the shit that's happened in his life! " Arina shouted.

"whatever. Just leave me the fuck alone " I growled, closing the curtains to my bunk.

I took my iPod out from under my pillow and plugged in my ear buds.

I stuck them in my ears, playing the song I hate everything about you by Three Days Grace.

It honestly describes how I feel about Aron.

I hate everything about him but I love everything about him at the same time.

His smile, his laugh, his voice, his jokes.

No wonder he doesn't notice how I feel.

I'm nothing like him.

I rarely smile, I rarely laugh, my voice sucks, and I'm not funny.

There were so many imperfections that I could name about myself that are the opposite about Aron.

I closed my eyes, trying to blank back tears.

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I must've fallen asleep because when I woke up the entire bus was quite and all the lights were off.

The only noise was coming from the lounge.

I walked out of the bunk area to see Aron passed out on the couch with some random show on the TV.

Only it wasn't a show it was just static. Strange.

I walked over, gently picking him up and carrying him back to the bunks.

I lifted him up into his bunk.

I was a bit surprised because I was pretty weak and I knew Aron wasn't very heavy but he wasn't light either.

Once I was sure he was comfortable I climbed back into my bunk, staring up at the ceiling.

I knew I wasn't falling asleep any time soon so I didn't really bother.

I just wish I could tell him how I feel.

I know he'd reject me though so there's no point.

I don't know if I'd be able to take rejection from him.

I can barely take seeing him with all this cheap ass girls he brings back to the bus.

I crawled out of my bunk, heading for the bathroom.

"what do those girls have that I don't? " I mattered as I looked in the mirror.

I opened the cabinet, looking around for a certain bottle.

I found it, hesitating.

I pulled my hand away, shutting the cabinet.

" No Jimmy. Not tonight. Not now. Things will get better. They always do " I told myself, shutting the light off and walking back to my bunk.

I climbed back in, laying on my side so that I was facing the small window.

I sighed quietly, closing my eyes and hoping I'd fall asleep soon.