Merlin- Gone

Came out

Arthur's pov
    I had stayed in my room, not wanting to see anyone at the moment.
    I lay on my bed sobbing. I just want Merlin back. I haven't been able to smile for months, since Merlin had disappeared.
    IT HAD BEEN 4 MONTHS! I was going crazy. My room was a mess. I let nobody in except servants who bring my paper work and food in.
    My room has smashed vases all over the floor, clothes scattered around, pillows Merlin touched were thrown across the room. I had also ripped my curtains because I was looking for Merlin out the window but he never came.
    My condition was worse. My hair was ratted since it didn't bother to brush it. I didn't smell to good either. When was the last time I took a bath? I also had gotten skinnier. I usually don't eat anything anymore. If Merlin isn't the one to bring me my food, I will not eat it. I had even given Morgana the crown until I got better, which I don't think will ever come. But I still get the paper work, that was the deal.
    Some say I have lost my mind, which I have and I know it, some say that I need to stop crying over a servant. That one I did not agree on. He was my best friend. And now he is probably dead.
    We had searched everywhere for him. We just couldn't find him. We had looked in other kingdoms as well. No sign of him.
    I sit on my bed hugging a pillow. Tears streaming down my face, but I make no sounds. All I can think of is Merlin.
    All I can think of is him calling me a prat and a clot pole. All I can think of is his morning "rise and shine" saying. All I can think of is our shared laughs. All I can think of is his jokes. All I can think of is his clumsiness. ALL I CAN THINK OF IS HE IS NOT HERE WITH ME!!!!!
    I cry even harder. Why why. I grab the closest thing beside me and chunk it at the wall making it shatter. I just threw the vase Merlin liked the best. I scream helplessly when the guards nock on the door.
    "We have news from one of your knights, sire!"
    I jump up, put on new clothes that don't smell like rotting fish, brush me hair, and I sprinted outside.
    People look at me and point with smiles on their faces, "He finally came out!"
    I sprint around the corner and go to the throne room. Morgana looks up from the throne, I see she has had a hard time as well. Her and Merlin were really close.
    "What is he news?" I say excitingly. Morgana looks close at me, "Mordred has something to tell you." She said calmly.
    "Ok, What is it?"