She Walks Alone

Chapter 9

I wake up from my well-needed rest I look to the clock and see its 4:30 a.m. Good just enough time to get someone dressed and ready for school. I hop out of bed and into the shower when I come out I hear screaming coming from the bedroom. Ashton! I secure the towel around my body and run out. Ashton is in bed with a terrified expression.

"Ash! What's wrong, are you okay?" I kneel down by his bed and gather him in my arms.

"Lovie I had a bad dream a really really bad dream and you were in it!" he says rapidly shaking in my arms

"What happened Loveo?" he looks at me and shakes his. What could have been so bad? "Its okay you can tell me. "

"Well, it was that you and Rylan started dating and then you forgot all about me and then you left me and I was all by myself." He says slowly beginning to cry.

"Oh, Loveo I would never ever leave you, I love you more than anything in this world you are my world okay and no one not even a silly little boy is going to change that." I explain to him how could he ever think that Rylan is just....... ugh! I don't know what Rylan is but it doesn't matter he's just a boy and that's all he'll ever be.

"Okay! " Already he's smiling again. Oh, I wish I could be like that.

"Here get some more rest and I'm going to get dressed alright?"

"Mhm" he nods his head and I lay him in bed as heads back to sleep I get up to get dressed throwing on a white sweater and jeans with my old high tops. I go into the kitchen and prepare breakfast for us. I can't get what Ash said about Rylan and I. I would never leave him but boys they're always trouble aren't they? I don't know, what if his dream had some truth to it. Okay, let's not worry about it, I can't worry about it. I have things to do. I go to Ash's bed to get him ready. This is my life. Yesterday with Rylan was just a day that should never happen again. It can't.

*******

I arrive at school at 7:20 and head straight for back of the library. So usually the back of the library is empty especially at this time of the day. But some blondie decided to show up. God, he looks so... ugh! It's not okay for someone to look so effortlessly cute. I turn around to leave, reminding myself not to get to close.

"Roxanne!" I hear feet running towards me I turn around and come face to face with him.

"Hey blondie," I look up at him. He steps forward and we're chest to chest.

"Hey brownie trying to avoid me are we?" He raises one of his eyebrows and I tip my head to the side shrugging my shoulders he head falls as he laughs at my gesture. "Come on, lets go!"

"Rylan hush we're in a library remember," I hiss at him. He just simply rolls his eyes at my scolding. We reach my window, he sits down and pulls me with him

"Rylan what are yo-" I'm cut off my lips being smashed into mine, our lips move perfectly insync. I know I shuld pull away but I just can't he is so intoxicating. He licks my bottom lip and its like my mind realized what the heck its doing and I pull away. I look down and twiddle with my fingers how can something so wrong feel so right. Blondie places his fingers under my chin and makes me look at him.

"Rox, if I went to far I'm sorry I just got carried away ,I couldn't control myself. Someone could've walked in at any minute gosh okay that was really stupid I am so so sorry." As he apoligizes it it makes me feel worse. So I hug him to let him know it is okay. I just I can't stay with him he's this fantasy, this dream that's not realistic for me. Maybe in another life we could be together but in this one that's just something that wouldn't work. I've got bills, work, and Ashton. I don't have the time to daydream about boys. I pull away from the hug finally managing the courage to tell him.

"Rylan, I have a lot of things that I have to worry about, a lot. The amount of stress that I'm constantly under you just wouldn't understand. So I have to tell you something. But believe me I like you, so so much and I've never felt like this ever, but we can't keep on whatever this is. It won't work and its killing me to say this, but I don't have any other choice. So I'm saying bye." I let out the breath I didn't even know I was holding.

"Why? Why can it not work ?" he grabs my hands holding onto them tightly. "We could make this work I know we could and you are right I don't know what you are going through. But let me in. Just let me in show me what you are going through let me help"

"Blondie, w-" te bell rings signaling that classes have start. Rylan looks at me with sad eyes and stnads up to leave kissing my forehead and walking away. Tears threaten to spill from my eyes, how could I have become so fond of him in the little amount of time we had? I get up and rush to homeroom before I get in trouble.

*******

After school, I hide out on the football field in the corner of tall bleachers. I'm waiting till almost everyone is gone.

"Roxanne!" I look down startled at the sound of someone's voice. I look down to see just the person to talk to. Daniel. I climb down the bleachers and stop right I front of him.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I question

"Well I wasn't sure if you were going to come to the garage so I came here to make sure you don't have a choice you antisocial bunny"

"Bunny? And I had full intention of going but I forgot I have to work tonight which I will should be getting to I'm already late to get Ash."

"Yeah, bunny, it's suits you. In other new let me come we can get Ash faster in my car, go to your job and when you're down I'll pick you up and you can head to the garage. What to do you think. I think it works perfect. Deal?"

"Deal."

*******

I'm washing down tables when Daniel walks in with ice cream in his hands.

"Hello Roxanne, Ashton here's the ice cream I promised and Roxanne here's yours. Enjoy" he smiles and plops down next to Ashton. Wait what? Like I'll take the ice cream, but what does he mean.

"What do you mean? When did you two talk?"

"Well when we picked up Ash you had fallen a sleep for a few minutes so we talked and he said planes were invented in 1903 I said 1905 we made a bet loser get winner ice cream and he was right so here we are." He says shrugging his shoulders with a crooked smile and Ash gives me a big toothy smile. I laugh at their goofy smiles while thanking Daniel and eat and clean the diner. Once I'm finished we say our farewells to Alfredo and head to the garage.

"New car today, huh?

"You I had to switch it up to impress the girls" he says cocking his head to at me. We get in me extra carefully in awe of the nice cars he drives.

"This is a Henessey Venom GT this was the fastest car of 2013 and made it to 272 mph before running out of runway. They broke the car land speed with it. How do you even have one? They aren't a lot of them."

"I love it when you speak cars to me, Roxanne." Placing his hands over his heart with Ash laughing and me rolling my eyes. "But my dad was one of the first buyers he got bored of it and gave it to me, I still don't know how you could ever get bored of this car." He said starting up the engine. "Ready. Set. Go!" With we go zooming through our little New England town.