ruled

part 1

I wake up in my bed just like I always do. my little cushion lies on the right side and my teddy bear on my left. 

I choose the bear when I was four.   you can only make a couple of choices in your life and the first one was to pick a bear.  you could choose between a boy and a girl.  of course I picked the girl and her name was Silvia. 

What you couldn't choose was the name. the ministers do that. but I didn't like the name so I made my own one. I call her Zoey.

the ministers do everything for you.

they pick your friends, schools, when you kiss, husband/wife, they choose when you have to get pregnant... and much more.

they do it because of the past.  before they made the world better people made all their choices themself.  that went wrong sometimes. some woman round the age of 40 got pregnant.  that's way to old. thinks could go wrong and there is a chance the baby isn't healthy.

in our community you have to get pregnant when you are 16.  because when you are young and fit, the baby is growing perfect. 

I am 16 years old now. that means I have to get pregnant soon. I am not exited just like every other girl but I am furious. I want to decide when I want to get pregnant. I'm not ready for this baby and I didn't wanted to marry my husband. but I had no choice!

my name is Isabel, my husband is Dale and my 3 friends are Silvia, Ymke and Sharon. 

my mother's mame is Samantha. her husband, my father,  is Devon.

I had to marry Dale when I was only 13.  they told us that when you grow up together you will love each other till the end.  luckily for me Dale was my best friend.  we did always liked each other. we weren't aloud to kiss before the age of 15, but we did it when I was 13. I remember it clearly.

we were laughing about a stupid joke I made when he looked at my lips. I turned to face him and smiled.  he smiled back. his eyed glanced in the moonlight and his blond hair looked like gold. I couldn't do anything but stare at him like he was famous.   he interrupted me by coming closer.  the next think I remember is his lips on mine, my first kiss.

after that I really liked him and we became closer and closer.  he is like the most amazing boy I know and I love him.. but I don't want to be pregnant of his baby now. I shouldn't be complaining because I don't have any choice.  tomorrow is our day to make love and you can't do anything about it. 

if you refuse to have sex they will import his seed into me so I still get pregnant. 

every girl is tested for when she  has to do it. with the new technology they can exactly tell when you have 100% chance to get pregnant. 

thinking about it makes me feel nauseous.  

I put on shoes and clothes and walk downstairs. my mother waits in the hallway and opens her arms for a hug.  I jump into them and wave at my father, who is standing in our cosy living room.

'where are you going?' my mother asks.  'I am going to see Silvia.' I say.  'alright. ' she says.

when I'm about to leave my mother stops me by calling my name.  'yes?' I say.   'when you get back home I would love to talk with you. is that alright?'   she says.   I nod and force myself to smile.  I shut the door and make my way to Silvia. 

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when I knock on the door she opens it crying.    'Sil what's wrong!' I shout out immediately.   she gasps and nods her head.  'they.. they said...'  she mutters.  'who said what?' I ask.   'the ministers.. they said I...I am not able to have children when I'm 16..'  she says while she covers her head in her hands. 

'and I was just about to say that I don't want to get pregnant'   I think. I am kind of jealous. I wished I wasn't able to get pregnant now. but instead of letting her know I'm jealous I act supportive. 

'Ahw. . it's going to be alright Sil. I promise, it doesn't matter you won't get pregnant when you're 16!' I say.  'easy talking for you! you will get pregnant tomorrow!' she snaps at me.  'yeah and I'm so exited..' I mumble sarcastic. 

she looks at me like she just saw water burn.

'I would have never thought this of you!' she says.  'what?'  I  say .   'I thought you were exited to be pregnant! you're ruining everything for the ministers!'  she says while she looks at me like I'm dirt. 

'well I'm sorry I don't want to be pregnant while I'm sixteen! I want to decide with who I have a baby and when!' 

Silvia still looks the same way. 'fine then.' is say and I get out of her house by slamming the door shut.