Finding Love ~ Book•2✔️

Chapter Twenty Five~

"What do you mean there was a mistake?" I ask; growing very irritated. The woman behind the desk tucks a strand of her hair behind her ear, nervously. She smoothed over her nurse scrubs and looks back at the clipboard.

"I'm sorry ma'am but they must have messed up the lab results somehow." The woman shows me the paper. My eyes flare in anger. What the hell. My eyes drop to my stomach for a moment.

I look back at her and grit my teeth, "You do know that I could file for a lawsuit right?" I'm lying, I could but I won't. It's not this woman's fault, but the companies. No one even bothered to call me.

"This is so messed up. Who is even in charge here?" I try to keep my calm but I'm quickly losing it. The woman swallows nervously.

"Im sorry ma'am-" I cut her off.

"No, I don't want to here some stupid excuse for why I didn't get notified that my test was wrong." I snap. The woman flinches a little and nods.

"Dr. Newman, has an eleven o'clock today?" She informs me, but it comes out more as a question. As if she fears my answer.

"I have to be at work. I think the least you could do is fit me in." I try to reason with her. The woman sighs before going back to her computer.

"I can squeeze you in between his 9:55 app. and his 10:30." She looks back up. I nod my head quickly.

"That will do," I reply quickly, "Thank you." I thank her. She nods and I walk away from the desk. I find an empty seat and wait to be called back. After sitting in the small seat for a while I glance down at my watch. Ugh I still have about twenty five minutes. I watch nervously as woman are called back. I stare at each women's stomach, burning holes into them as they walk by.

I look back down at mine and begin to bite my nails.

"Miss Kane?" My name is called and I jump up, eagerly. The nurse smiles at me and I follow her back to a room. She checks my temperature before writing some things down.

"Dr. Newman should be in soon" She smiles at me before leaving the room. Aiden. I still need to tell him.

The door creaks open and the doctor steps in. He flashes me a smile and flips through what I guess is my file.

"Good to see you." We shake hands.

"So?" I ask him. He frowns.

"So seems there was a mistake." He confirms my fear.

"How though? It doesn't make any sense. And it's so unfair; I didn't even know that I was pregnant until I was three months in." My voice goes from calm to angry to my voice cracking. Tears sting my eyes.

"I'm sorry Miss Kane it's very unprofessional and I can understand how you're upset." This aggravates me.

"You understand? You aren't the one who's been pregnant for three months and you sure as hell won't be pushing out a baby in six months." Now I'm getting pissed.

"Look, Im sorry ma'am," He begins but never gets to finish because I cut him off.

"Look I'm going to start getting people fired if I hear, 'I'm sorry ma'am' one more damn time." I seethe.

"I just need to know for sure how far I am." I collect myself. He nods.

"By the looks of your file and the lab. You are almost four months." He confirms my date. I just nod. We talk more about it.

"So I'll see you back in five weeks?" He asks and I nod.

"Yeah, five weeks." I mutter. We shakes hands once more before I leave.

Once I arrive home I pull my hair back into a ponytail and put on something comfortable. I can't go to work feeling like this, but I can't miss it either. I check my clock and see it's almost eleven o'clock. I was supposed to be there at seven but I called in and told Aiden I had an appointment. Though I didn't tell him about what my appointment was for.

Gosh Im such a horrible person; I told him that I wasn't pregnant but here I am. Before I know it I feel tears slip down my cheeks. I taste the saltiness of them as I lick my lips.

I wipe my eyes and sit down on my couch. Just staring at the wall; I let my thoughts course through my mind.

'Am I ready for this?'  

No.

'Will I keep the baby?'  

Of course. I don't think I could give it away. Even if I'm not ready, I could never bare to give my own child away.

'Will I be a good mother?'

I don't know.

'Will Aiden be a good father?'

I hope so.

'What if something goes wrong?'

I have to have faith.

Finally I stop thinking. There's so much more I need to ask myself, but I just don't want to think about it anymore right now.

I stand up from my couch and walk up my stair case. I flip on my light in my room and look in my mirror. Pulling my shirt up; I look at the baby bump. I place my hand over it and my shoulders sink.

"Can I really do this?" I speak to myself. Paisley and Fallon come into my room and start licking my bare feet. I let myself relax and giggle as they tickle me.

"Stop." I say softly, and bend down to pet them both. My shirt falls back down, covering my stomach.

I look at them both, "I'm going to be a mom." I say the words out loud. My heart flutters. I already feel love for this baby. Maybe I can do this.

My phone goes off. Bringing me out of my thoughts. I answer it, "Hello?" I speak.

"Where are you?" It's Ethan.

"At home." I mutter.

"What why?!" His voice grows louder.

"I'm not feeling well." I lie. Well I'm not really fully lying, I don't feel well but that isn't the reason why I'm here.

"You never miss work for that though." He's right. I nod to myself.

"Please just go with it." I beg him. I hear a sigh.

"Fine, but I'm coming over tonight." He invites himself over. I roll my eyes.

"Okay." I mumble. I might have asked Aiden to come over but I guess it'll have to wait.

"Alright I'll see ya." He says goodbye.

"Yeah." I hang up the phone.

"I'm going to be a mom." I say it one more time as I feel my stomach. It just looks like I'm fat. I'm mad at myself for not  even knowing. I know I shouldn't be, because it wasn't my fault. I was told I was not pregnant but how could I be so stupid. I look down at my stomach. I'm not fat, I'm pregnant.

"I'm pregnant." I test the words. My heart warms. My mind is saying I'm not ready, but my heart is making me feel otherwise.