you made everything okay
in a head so loud you were my peace
you could make all the voices go away
but the worst part is
you left
you didn't want to
i hope
but you did
you left me and now there is no silence
and they are louder and louder
angry for being suppressed so long
then i add on the hurt of missing you
it is so much at once
so much so i can't feel a single thing
they collide, cancel out
i am going insane
trying to find happiness in places that it is not
trying to find you in everything
trying to find myself
in anything
something
and all i can wonder is
"how good does it feel to be the one in the coffin?"
j.s.
