i can't stand seeing memories of us. i ask myself, what did i do wrong?
i saw a facebook memory just now. i posted a status saying i was lonely. you said, "i'm here girl. text me." it's like that's the only way i will hear from you, from a comment you posted a year ago.
what did i do wrong? i know we had a falling out, but was it worth this? why did you have to change? is it because we aren't in school anymore? i guess we really aren't forced to be in the same place at the same time like we were then. it's easier to be apart now because we don't have to be around each other. but why don't you want to?
you were everything to me. i really thought you would always care about me. and now, nothing. why? i know i hurt your feelings. we hurt each other's. i don't know what i did that made me so despised by you. i act like it doesn't bother me. deep inside, it really does. you were the closest thing i had to a sister. we were best friends. i want to know how you gave it up so easily without breaking. didn't it make you sad to let me go?
i miss you. i wish you would miss me. i wish texting you and begging for a reply was enough to make you care about me again. when i see our memories, it breaks me. it makes me feel like part of me is gone. i feel that way because it really is. am i not worth your effort?
i miss you. i care about you. why is it so easy for you to walk away? after everything?
-dani
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diary™
Randomjust a book that contains a lot of stuff that i go on about on a daily basis :-) i write about feelings, matt healy and what is happening in my life. i originally was going to delete this book but i decided to keep it.
