opposites attract [zarry} (please don't read, its really bad, my first story :/)

i can explain (part 1)

WELL, people i am feeling inspired  thanks to @BexTruex2xU and that is why i am updating!!!, this chapter had me i dont know emotionless, i was just blank, and gosh im so mad, wanna know why, well you have to read first , then ill tell you XD hahahahah, well im gonna stop now so we can get to the actual story XD

HARRY POV

they made me do what i did, they caused me this pain,they made me who i am today,  they made it possible for me to have zayn, but they also made me lose him.

i never drink because i know what im capable of, the first time i drank which was 3 years ago when i was 16, i almost chocked my girlfriend to death, and after that day she left me, i vowed never to drink again so i wouldnt hurt the one's that i care about, but i broke that promise when they called me yesterday, laughing at me and telling me the things that i never wanted to hear, i didnt care at first, but then they told me what happened , and i broke, i couldn't handle it, so i did it, i did the dirty, i drank to get rid of that ache in my heart, the scar that has been placed by them,

but does zayn know about this, no, and i have to explain it to him or else, he would never and i repeat never forgive me, or even worse, love me again, no that cant happen, i wont let it  happen , just no, i have to telll zayn what happened, at least  so he wouldnt be confused, but how am i gonna get out of this office and from zayn's doctor

"sir, are you ok" the doctor asks, noticing my fidgeting

i quickly think of a lie "um , i just really have to pee" i laugh nervously

:oh sweetie, why didnt you say something" she laughed

"oh i guess i  didnt want to disturb you" i lie

"oh well, the bathroom is to the left, and if you cant find it, just ask one of the nurses, they'll direct you" she replied before turning back to her work

i nodded and smiled at how gullible she was, i stood up and walked out the dorr heading straight to zayn's room, i just hope liam, niall and louis aren't there, because im sure liam is gonna pound my ass, as i see zayn's door nearing closer, i strain my eyes to see if anybody else is in there, but i didnt see anybody,

"c'mon harry, you can do this" i mutter to myself

i walk closer to the door, taking little steps (harry, open the Goddamn door already *sigh* lol XD) i finally reach the door, i take a deep breath before streching my arms, then releasing my fingers to hold the the doorknob (gosh so detailed), i take another deep breath, and just as im about to turn the doorknob, a nurse calls me

"excuse me sir, but what are you doing" she asks

i ransack my brain, thinking of something to say "um im visiting" i reply silently thanking God that i didnt stutter

"oh, are you mr payne, mr horan, or mr tomlinson" she asks

"Mr payne" i lie

"oh ok, you may proceed" she smiles before turning around and leaves

i sigh out of relief before turning to the door, opening it quickly this time as to not face anymore disruptions, i enter the quiet room that is filled with zayn's quiet snores, i use this time to study his beautiful features, as this may be the last time i get to do so, i stare at his body before moving my eyes over to his collarbones, his beautiful olive neck that still has some of my marks on it, to his sharp jawline, to his straight nose,, and then i finally move my eyes expecting to meet his closed eyes, but was suprised to see a pair of golden hazel eyes staring back at me witth different expressions

sadness

betrayal

fear

and the worst of all

hatred

"zayn" i whisper, coming closer to him

" please,get away from me" he chockes out, and i can see the tears forming in his eyes

"zayn, im so sorry, please let me explain" i beg

"you better get out before i call the nurse" he threatens

"zayn, dont you wanna know the reason" i ask

he goes quit for a minutr, his face deep in thought, he takes another minute before speaking up

"fine what do you want to say" he sighs

"zayn im so sorry" i plead

"harry, i dont want to hear your sorry pleas, i just want to know the damn reason why the only person who i trusted and loved hurt me so much" he growls

"its not my fault , i just couldnt handle it, i know better than to drink, but i did it and i-"

i was talking but i got cut off by zayn

"what do you mean, you know better than to drink" he asks

"im not supposed to drink, the last time i drank was yesterday, but before that 3 years ago" i sigh

"what do you mean, wev'e gotten drunk more than i can count harry" he asks

"that was fake, i wasnt really drunk" i admit

"you weren't" he asks

"no" i sigh

"oh, so what really happened" he asks again

"well it started when they called" i begin

"wait who is they" he asks

"m-my um my-um, " i stutter

"harry, spit it out" he yells

"my family"

hahahahah kudos to those who got it right, 'they' is harry's family @kenndall_loves_niall hahaha u got it right dude, anyway im gonna tell you why im mad

so today my mom andd my aunt were watching a movie, so they showed a gay scene then they told me to turn it off, and i was like why

me: why

mum: its a gay movie, i dont like it, its the devil

me: no its not, i have gay friends

aunt: *to my mom* you better  take your child to church and tell your child to stop talking to them, their not human

me: you cant say that, i love gay people, there is nothing wrong with them, they are normal human beings like us GOD!!!

mum: i dont want to see you with them and thats final

so i got mad and stormed up to my room and the thing is if my mom found out that im writing a gay story my life is practically over, she is gonna make me suffer, i hate homophobics, she's my mom so i cant hate her, but i hate how she thinks, being gay is not wrong, there is nothing wrong with loving the same gender, in fact i think its cute, im not gay but evertimr i see a gay couple or a gay person my day just lights up, i love how they dont give a fuck about what others have to say, i love gays, and no matter what you say, im never gonna stop talking or believing in them

anyway

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 and zayn's bulge tho XD