opposites attract [zarry} (please don't read, its really bad, my first story :/)

moving on

 THIS CHAPTER, I DECIDED IS GONNA BE REALLY LONG AND ITS GONNA END IN SOME REALLY UNEXPECTED PLOT TWIST DUUDE, IM SO FUCKING EXCITED AAAAAAH!!!, OK IM GONNA CALM DOWN, AND NOW LET US MOVE ON SHALL WE..............................................

ZAYN POV

I need to stop, seriously, he hurt me, he did, and that over powers every feeling i have ever felt for him, or does it?, im so confused, i dont know what im feeling right now, but i do know one thing, im GONNA HAVE TO MOVE ON, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HARRY IS DOING RIGHT NOW, FUCK FOR ALL I KNOW, HE COULD BE FUCKING SOME DUDE!, zayn calm yourself down, i doesnt matter what harry is doing, i just have to find someone else, thats what they say right, one can never be alone forever, you just have to find a replacement, and thats exactly what im gonna do, i cant keep myself locked up in here crying my eyes out every night, i look up into the mirror to look at my appearance, and let me say i looked a hot mess, my eyes were red and puffy, i had huge bags under them too, my normally tan and beautiful skin was pale from the lack of sun these few days, i sighed before getting up streching my arms in the process, but i quickly put them down because goddamn did they stink, when was the last time i actually took a shower,

i trudged my feet to the bathroom, taking my clothes off and laying them down on the floor, i entered the room that was filled with water falling from the ceiling (A/N I JUST FIGURED OUT THAT THIS IS INFACT A FICTION, SO I CAN MAKE STUFF UP AND INVENT CRAZY THINGS HAHAHAHAH XD) and i felt my muscles relax as the warm water touched it, i closed my eyes taking in the warm sensation, thats when my mind drifted to harry once again i opened my eyes to clear those thoughts, but when i opened my eyes, all i saw was the memory of harry eating my ass out right here at this spot, and i felt my member harden at the thought, before i could think about what i was doing, i grabbed my member, stroking it slowly, letting my mind take in those dirty thoughts of what me and harrry did in here, i started to pump my dick faster moaning out harry's name in the process, i slipped the pad of my thumb on the tip, imagining that was harry's tongue doing that to me, that alone was enough to send me to the world of toe curling and pleasure, i opened my eyes and saw the white substance flowing away from my body, i have never felt so ashamed in my life, i just masturbated to the thought of harry............ i have issues!, i began to wash myself making sure to clean my asshole and dick repeately as we all know thats where the stink comes from, after my long ass shower, i finally felt like a load of weight had been taking off of my shoulders, i felt lighter, and i looked way better, i looked up into the mirror and noticed that my skin had gone back to the golden tan that they once were, my eyes had regained thier normal state, and the bags under them seemed to have dissapeared, i smiled at my reflection and grinned more when i saw my pearly white teeth come into view, and for the first time since harry left, i think

i just might be okay.

HARRY POV

I stare out my window, llooking at the people going past, all the couples holding hands, enjoying thier summer,  i couldnt help but think "that was supoosed to be me and zayn" we had so many things planned for the summer and the fact that we might not even be able to do one breaks my heart, i miss him, and thats when i start to whisper the lyrics to miley cyrus's i miss you

i miss you

i miss your smile

and i still shed a tear every once in a while

even though its diferent now, youre still here somehow

my heart wont let you go, and i need you to know