Save Me

Chapter 13

"Of course there's a reason why I left you out of the story," she says.

"Why?"

"It's better that I don't mention you. It's for your own good, really. I'll tell you eventually, though, I promise."

"Fine."

She licks her lips and leans back against the wall, playing with her fingers.

"I'm still not done with the story," she says after a while.

"Finish then, you promised that you would tell me everything."

Ariana's POV

Flashback

I didn't go to school for two days after what happened with Cameron. I wasn't scared of what other people would say if I went, I was scared of what I would do. I'm a wreck and I can't control myself around other people anymore. I snap at the worst possible times.

When I finally went back, it was quiet in the hallway. Nobody said anything to me. For once, everybody was minding their own business. It was strange.

As things went on throughout the day, nobody said anything. It was still quiet. I guess nobody had anything to say, and that's a good thing. They didn't have anything to say to me, anyway. Not even Cameron said a word until the very end of the day. Just when I was starting to think that it was a pretty easy day.

"Grande!" he says, walking next to me. "How are ya?"

"Do you really care?" I ask sarcastically.

"No, not at all, really."

At least he's truthful.

"Listen, you should come over again later," he says. "Might be even better than last time, yeah?"

"Some other time."

I walk faster, leaving him behind. I at least had the ability to defend myself against him this time. I wasn't thinking the last time. I couldn't think. It was even worse after I left. Everything around me was just a big blur and the world actually seemed so calm and peaceful. I drowned everything out that I didn't want to see or hear, but you can't do that forever.

Now I'm back at school again, and I'm still kind of a wreck. I'm just not as bad as I was before. I don't know what I was thinking when I even considered suicide. I think I'm too much of a coward to do that. I couldn't.

The second day I went back to school messed me up again. Not as bad as the first time, but I was almost in that dark place again. It's funny how people say that your darkest place holds your deepest fears and darkest secrets; but it actually gets rid of all that for just a moment. You forget about everything, and that's what everybody wants to do. It doesn't exactly make things better, it just makes them less terrible; if that makes any sense.

Things were back to normal that day. I would occasionally see people glancing over at me, but they would quickly turn their head after I noticed them. It was almost like they were scared of me for some reason.

"It was fucking weird," I hear Cameron say. "It was almost like she was a zombie or something. She told me to take her home but I had to help her in the car, inside and up the stairs. I thought she was just gonna kill me this time instead of whatever else she wanted to do."

I glance over at Cameron and his friend who nods. He's talking to Justin Wright, the same guy who started the rumor about me having an STD. I would figure that he's one of the guys who knows that this shit isn't true because he's one of the people who started it.