Lauren Jauregui Imagines

Burning Bridges

I've been lonely, missing your body
You've been out of touch, you're so far away
Wishing you would tell me you're sorry
And you know you made a big mistake

I opened the front door of Lauren and I's flat. I walk to the bedroom. I open the door to see Lauren in bed with some guy. And said guy has his tiny dick thrusting into my girlfriend. I let out a silent groan. 'Please tell me I'm imagining this. She wouldn't cheat on me again, right?' I thought to myself as I took one last look at the two. I took a deep breath and silently walked away.

I drive to Dinah's house. With tears streaming down my face, I knock on her door. She opens it and instantly pulls me into a hug.

Close my eyes and try to forget you
Every time I do, I just see your face
After all this shit that we've been through
Why are you so willing to walk away?

I close my eyes as I hugged Dinah tightly, seeking comfort from my best friend. I try to forget about the shit we've been through. But I can't. I really can't.

--

"Lauren?" My voice quivers as I try to get my girlfriend's attention.

She turns to me and gives me an annoyed expression. "What?" she spat.

"C-can we have a m-movie night?" I ask nervously, trying not to make the tears fall down.

"Ugh! I don't want to," she states. She stands up and gets her coat and keys. "I'm going out."

--

"Lauren! Why are you being such a bitch? You know our relationship was perfect and then you just started acting like a complete ass-"

"ME? I'm not the one being extra clingy and annoying! You're always on my tail. You always want to know where I am and what I'm doing or who I'm going to be with! Why can't you just back off? It's none of your business!" she yells at me. At this point, my tears are just rushing down my face already. And she leaves. Again.

--

"Y/N?" she says softly, but I can still hear the least bit of venom in there.

"Yeah?"

"I'm sorry about this afternoon and last night. Please forgive me," she apologizes halfheartedly.

--

Damn, if I had a dollar every time she said that phrase, I would probably be rich by now. I caught her cheating about 10 times. I forgave her. She didn't care though. She kept on doing it.

I don't know why I stick around to watch you burn our bridges down
I can't help it that I need you
I can't help it that I need you
Now I'm drowning underneath the water that was under me
I'm still screaming that I need you

After all these months of her hurting me, I still forgive her. I don't know why. I need her in my life. Again, no idea why. But I need Lauren. I crave Lauren. Even if we don't talk or do anything together anymore. She's just someone that I thought would help me with everything and would make me happy. She still does, just not as much as before.

Burn the bridges burn them down, down, down, down
Burn the bridges burn them down, down, down, down

--
"You bitch!" I scream at her. "Third times this week, Lauren! Third! Am I literally not enough for you?"

"You don't satisfy my needs, Y/N! Look, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I won't do it again."

"Bullshit! That's the third time you've told me that this week as well! You're just such a slut that you can't even take a break for a week! You're such a slut that you've had sex with three different people this week already! And it's Tuesday! One person per day, is that it, Laur? Huh?" I spat at her, venom and hatred laced on my voice.