where are you?
at moments like this
i couldn't help but think
of you
my mind seems to wander
at places it's not supposed to be
places where i know
i couldn't afford such luxury
the stars seemed dimmer
where it's slowly
engulfed by darkness
it's times like this
when i'm aching to see
the buildings from above my window
but unfortunately
i'm not in the city
there's no lights
in this town i'm in
only trees covering the sky
making it hard for me
to watch the clouds pass by
where are you?
what's taking you so long?
have we meet yet?
bumped into each other yet,
went in the same store,
exchanged numbers yet?
are you across the country,
near, far,
or maybe leisurely walking on the streets
battling your own war?
maybe you're good at math
while i suck at it
or maybe you're a good cook
when i don't even know how to do it
maybe we're the total opposites
you being good
at everything i'm bad at
and me being good (i hope)
at everything you're bad at
or maybe not
maybe we're just the same
both wanting
trying to be living in this world
both wondering
what it's like to meet each other
both messed up
to care enough and even bother
and oh, maybe you write poetry too
or at least read them
but by now, i still don't have a clue
so where are you?
i'm asking this question to no one in particular
because it's nights like this
when i'm alone inside my room
staring at the four white walls beside me
while shadows emerge from behind
and their friend
which i consider a very unwanted guest
named loneliness hug me
ever so tightly
as if we're close
silent screams from my throat
are building
while a fire inside
remains scorching
and i could have choked
by their suffocating hug by then
but i guess i liked
the comfort they brought me
really though
where were you?
YOU ARE READING
intricate skies
Poetrysaltwater splattered on these blank pages while she still bleeds.