Why me?(carl grimes)[On Hold]

Painful flashback

hi guys! here's the new chapter :p I hope you'll like it! Remember I don't own the walking dead or Kellin Quinn but my OC.      Enjoyyy~

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                     Carter's POV

"You filthy bitch!!! You are a disgrace! Your brother will ALWAYS be better than you, you whore!!" The woman known as my 'mom' yelled at me, throwing a wine bottle at me.

I felt pain in my hand when I tried to not get hit with the glass but failed. Blood started oozing out but not a lot at least.

"You. Are. A. Disgrace!" My mom said as she started slowly walking towards me and punched my gut with a hard impact.

I started coughing out blood and tried to get air in my lungs.

"W-Why are you d-doing t-this? " I asked trying to grasp for air.

"Because you don't belong in this family! I wish I never had you! I should've left you at the dumpster, you bitch!!" She said with eyes filled with hate and disgust.

"Now. Get. Out. Of. Here. You bitch!" She demanded, pointing up the the stairs.

I started to limp my way to the top and trying to get there fast before she starts getting angry again.

Once I made it too my room I went to my bathroom which was my own.

I stared at my reflection wondering how I deserved this life.

Why me? Is it because I'm ugly, which I know I am, and fat?

Tears started to ooze out of my eyes because I knew I was fat, ugly, a disgrace, worthless, a waste of space, and everything else my mom called me...

I didn't bother too fix my wound on my hand because I knew I deserved this...

I started to look in my drawer and tried to find something I had for a LONG time..

A razor blade....

I stared at the razor for what felt like hours wondering if I'm really gonna do this...

I wanted to do it...

I started to cut lines on my arm with some deep and some not . I started to think of what I really am and cut my arm for every name I've been called by everyone.

worthless..1 cut..waste of space..2 cuts...slut..3 cuts...fat...4 cuts..and so much more...

I cutted the same amount on the other arm and just sobbing.

'Why can't I be better? '

I put my razor back in its hiding place and just stared at the lines on my arm.

'I'm sorry Kellin...I wish I was the perfect sister..but I'm not...I'm just a filthy bitch whose worth nothing... I'm sorry I cut but I'll try.....just for you brother'

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Thx for reading guys! I literally almost cried when I wrote this chapter but anyways I hope you liked it and if you have any ideas for this story then leave a comment and again thk you guys. byeee~