The beautiful sky

Chapter 10: This can't be happening!

When it finally hits me, on what is happening I can't take it! My legs start to give away and I fall onto my bed hard. This can't be happening right! It's not true, no. After an hour or so, Christen returns. I look at his hand and I see it. This is what will tell us if my problem is real or if it's just us being crazy. I'm hoping for the crazy part. In his hand is a pregnancy test. He wants a moment and than says, "let's see if this is real or not.". I can't make out his tone. I go to the bathroom, while Christen waits outside the door. I take the test and wait to see if it's going to be positive or negative. What will we do if it's positive? I mean we have talked about having kids, but not right now! Oh no, will he leave me if it's positive? I wait and wait and wait. Finally, the test is done. I slowly get up and walk to my bed and I sit down. Soon after I sit down so does Christen. "So, what does it say? " he ask in a loving voice. I wait a moment and than say, " promise you won't leave me. Whether, it's positive or negative". I'm trying to hold back the tears. I don't want to lose him. I know he will most likely leave. Which, is why this is so hard to tell him. Though, to my surprise he pulls me close and kisses me. "I'm not going anywhere. ". Once the words leave his mouth, I break down and cry. I cry and I cry in his arms. He makes me lay down and rest. After some silent moments he says, "it's positive isn't it? ". I give him a nod, not knowing what to say. I don't want to talk about this anymore, at least for tonight. I know Christen can see that, because he doesn't say another word. He gets in bed with me and holds me until we both fall fast asleep in each other's arms.