A quiet house I live in
Free of you and your voice
But you’ve decided you want your family back
And you didn’t even give us a choice
You stand here, bags at your feet
Smile on your face, arms open wide,
All I feel is surprised, heartbeat slowing down
Before I can react you pull me to your side
You say that you’re sorry
That you’re different now
I really don’t believe you
You can’t even show me how
I honestly think that this is just a midlife crisis
I don’t want you here, everyone says I’m ungrateful
Seven long years you could’ve been here, I’m not even upset
I just don’t need you anymore and it’s hard to say that without sounding hateful
Right back up in my room as though nothing has changed
Don’t wanna see you or anyone, in my mind things are the same
Just let me sleep my life away, like I usually do
I have nothing to say, I did this while you were gone and I feel no shame
All I want is for you and everyone else to leave me alone
I’m’ just tired of thinking, remembering everything that we’ve been through
You keep saying that this decision, your decision was for us as a household
But this household was something we’d established for ourselves, separate from you
Stop telling me who I am because you don’t know
You’ve been gone for too long and trust me I’ve grown
I don’t care what you think you see, none of them even know the real me
I barley know myself but there is nothing about me that needs to constantly be shown
You stand there, angrily returning to your old self
Sadness on your face, mouth open wide
You know it’s hopeless but you don’t wanna take responsibility like the man you claim to be
You still want to try and you want me to want to but little do you know in my mind I’ve already died
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Thoughts and Memories
PuisiI'm not the best poet but I'm just trying something out and trying to be brave. I hope you like it and I don't mind any constructive criticism. All these poems are about things I think about and remember like love,school, and family
