Life With One Direction

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

I sat down as everybody left, waiting for mum and Lou to talk.

When I realized they were waiting for me to say something, I put my head down into my hand with my elbows resting on my thighs.

"I'm sorry!" I cried. "I should've accepted your decision but it's hard mum! I don't wanna lose you!"

She motioned for both Louis and I to get into the bed with her and we did.

She spent a while talking to us, telling us how much she loved us and that she always wanted us to stick together. It went on for about three hours, but I didn't mind. As long as I was there, with her, before she left.

"I love you both, and remember this, always remember that someone's watching over you. I'm watching over you."

With that, the heart monitor made a noise and kept beeping one lone beep.

Lou and I jumped out of the bed, both crying.

"No! No no no! Mum you can't leave yet!" I cried while screaming, not an easy combination.

My heart was tearing into shreds, I could feel it.

Lou quickly pressed the emergency button and the nurse came but she didn't do anything, she just watched us.

"Do something!" I yelled at her rudely. She was just standing there, watching my mother die!

"I can't," she said apologetically. "This was her decision. I'm so sorry for your loss."

She turned the heart monitor off and mum just lay there, with her eyes open staring up at the ceiling.

"I can't. I can't stay I here Lou I have to get out!" I said to him through my tears as the nurse covered my mums body with the white sheet.

He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to him as I did the same. We really did have to stick together to get through this because I know for sure that I can't do it alone. I'd probably end up killing myself.

We just stood there, outside of mums room, not letting go of one another and crying our hearts out.

Suddenly, two people that I would recognize anywhere came up to us, Eleanor and Millie.

"Sh- Sh- She's g-g-gone!" I stuttered through my wails.

Lou let go of me as Millie grabbed me tightly and El took him into her arms.

"Millie what am I going to do?" I asked her.

"You're going to keep on going. You're going to take care of yourself and love life because even if I don't know your mum that well, I know that it's what she wants you to do."

We sat there for what seemed like forever when I heard Lou whisper to Eleanor.

"I've got to get her home, we all have to go. She spent a whole week here before last night and mum told me she hadn't slept at all."

"Don't talk about me like I'm not here!" I growled at him and instantly regretted my outburst as he and the girls looked at me in shock.

"I'm sorry," I then said, crying even harder.

Lou let go of El and pulled me onto his lap, holding me so tightly it felt as though he were squeezing my insides out.

"Em I'm here. Talk to me, I'm always here for you," he whispered soothingly into my hair.

With my head against his chest, he rubbed my back and around half an hour later, I'd stopped crying.

I looked up at the clock to check the time and I read just passed midnight. It had been nearly four hours since mum had... I can't even think the word.