Hard to Love You

Chapter 28

Tyler's POV

" Stop being a dick Tyler," Ashley said while trying to reach behind my back.

I laughed and she huffed, folding her arms over her chest. We were laying down in her bed and it was around midnight. We had tubs of ice cream separating the space between us. Apparently she craves ice cream while on her period. I wonder if her craving will be ice cream when she gets pregnant..

" Tyler. Hand it over before I have to hurt you."

I winked at her and she blushed but didn't leave my gaze.

" Try to hurt me," I dared her. She made a face and moved all the ice cream to the floor. I tossed her phone, which she was reaching for, onto the floor.

" You better hope it's not cracked or you are buying me a new one!" she said, jumping on top if me. I laughed and she pinned my arms down. I have to admit, she was stronger than I expected. She looked down at me and raised an eyebrow.

" Ready to stop being stubborn?"

I laughed.

" As if!" I said, rolling over so I was on top of her now. I held down her arms by her wrist, applying some pressure so she knew who was in charge. I winked at her and her face immediately became red.

" I love it when you blush," I said with a smirk.

She rolled her eyes and brought her face up to mine.

" I love it when you wink at me," she whispered.

She leaned a bit closer and my eyes closed, ready for my lips to meet hers. Just then she flipped me over and sat on my stomach, holding my wrist down with a strong grip. I couldn't help showing my shock and she laughed, giving me a wink.

" Don't fuck with me."

I gave her a smile and shook my head. She sighed and bounced on my stomach. My stomach is toned though so I didn't feel that much.

" You suck," Ashley said with her bottom lip jutted out.

I leaned forward and kissed her lip gently.

" Whatever you say."

She rolled her eyes and hopped off of me. She grabbed her phone and after checking it, waved it at me.

" You're lucky it isn't cracked."

I laughed.

" I was so scared," I said sarcastically.

She stuck put her tongue and I smiled.

" You are so childish."

She stuck up her middle finger.

" I'm using the bathroom. Try not to destroy anything while I'm gone."

" No promises."

She left and I lied there, staring at the ceiling. Damn she is perfect. I mean, I can see myself with her. In the future. With kids running around. And I can see us old, grand kids running around and our children telling them to settle down. I can just imagine us old and sitting on a swing set, rocking back and forth. I smiled and placed my hands over my face, even though no one was in the room with me.

I don't know what it is about her. Maybe it's the way she carries herself, so full of dignity and pride, keeping her head up when she is down.

" What you over there smiling about freak?"

I moved my hands from my face and smiled at her. She looked at me like I was crazy and crawled into bed next to me.

" Just thinking about puppies with big eyes and how cute they are," I joked.

She rolled her eyes and cuddled into my side, resting her head on my bare chest. I put my arm around her and gave her shoulder a slight squeeze.

" I would be shocked," she laughed.

I smiled and she wrapped an around me. I rested my head on the top of her head and smelled her shampoo. Smelled like flowers. Fresh and sweet.

" Hey Ashley."

" Hm?" she mumbled, not looking up.

I paused then kissed the top of her head.

" Do you ever think about us?"

" What do you mean?"

" Like, do you ever think about us. What we might become in the future. Or if you think about how you want us to be."

She didn't say anything for a while and she ran her finger across my chest and stomach.

" Yeah," she whispered.

I began playing with her hair.

" Tell me."

She hesitated and I waited, not rushing her.

" I see us years from now. We have two beautiful kids, they both look like you. One boy the other a girl. Then I see us, middle aged, and the kids have moved out. We enjoy life, working. I don't see myself having a job. Maybe at McDonalds or something," she laughed softly and I smiled.

" Then I see us old. Wrinkly and I have a saggy butt and you have double chins."

I laughed and so did she.

" At least we are good looking now."

She laughed and continued.

" We live in a small house, wooden. I've always liked houses that looked like cabins. We have a big yard and there are small kids running around and our kids are talking to us and we are all happy. Just a happy normal family."

I nodded my head slowly and she began tracing her finger across my body again.

" You love me right?"

" Sadly, yes."

I tugged on her hair gently and she laughed. Ashley looked up at me and her big blue eyes looked into my green ones. I searched her eyes and rested my hand on her cheek."

" I love you sweets."

She smiled and I saw her eyes fill with tears. I've missed calling her sweets. Apparently she has too.

" I love you too asshole," she whispered quietly.

I stroked her cheek with my thumb, and wiped away a tear that escaped from her eyes.

" I love you so fucking much," I whispered.

I tilted her chin up and bent my head down a bit, so her soft gentle lips met mine. I kissed her gently. No tongue. No lip biting. Just her lips on mine. Yet it was the most perfect kiss in the world.

" I'll make your dreams come true," I said softly, resting my forehead against hers. Her eyes were still closed from the kiss and she took several deep breaths before opening them. She looked into my eyes and I swear there was a new look in her eyes that I have never seen before. Maybe that nobody has seen before. Other than Daniel that is.

" I fucking love you too Tyler."

In her eyes I could see it was true.

I could also see that her wall has come down.

I'm finally in.

Forever.