Uncertainty ♥ | Shakira & Adam Levine | [ON HOLD]

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♡ Chapter 2 ♡

Shakira's POV
* 2 days later *

During this 2 days things between Gerard and me were going great. But the thought of Adam being so upset 2 days ago on The Voice party and that he hasn’t even called me during this days worried me a lot. I looked for a good time to go and see him…maybe he’s sick, maybe he needs help since he’s living alone…Whatever…
Here I am…in front of his front door, still hesitating what should I do. Should I know on it, or no? I’m so afraid...I don’t know of what, I’m just afraid…
Okay, I have to this. No way am I going back. I must do this. After all he’s my friend, my best friend….
I’m knocking on the door. No answer.  Knocking once again. Still no answer…I’m starting to worry.
Suddenly, the door swings open and I see Adam there, standing in front of me, looking directly in into my eyes, in the way he always did.
“Oh. Hi. I’m sorry, come in”-Adam says, as I walk into his huge house.
“Tha-thanks”- I answer. He nods, in sign of “No problem”. He offers me the sofa, I thank him as I sit, and he sits next to me. Silence. It’s killing me. It’s horrible. It’s awful and I’m afraid of this. What is the reason of this silence? No word spoken. I’m already dying. I have to say something. But what? Everything I planned erased from my mind. I’m such an idiot.

Adam’s POV

During these 2 days I stayed at home.  I was thinking to myself, trying to figure out what to do. I was waiting for her call; I was waiting for her to come.  That’s all I needed. I’ve never felt this weak, this powerless. Every time my phone rang, every time I received a text, I hoped it was her. But no. All my hopes started lowering. Maybe she just doesn’t want me to be her friend.
I was lying on my couch, on the second floor, with my headphones on. Somehow, I heard a door knock. I ran to the door, once more praying, it’s her. I opened the door:
 …Oh, these eyes.  I wish I could stare look into them forever…
…Oh, these lips: I want them to say the expression I’m dying to hear…
…Oh, these hands: I want to hold and kiss them when they are happy, or even are crying…
…Oh…Oh, this woman…I wish I could wake up every simple morning and sleep every simple night with her head on my chest…
It happened. She’s here…right in front of me…She’s looking into my eyes…Oh my Gosh, I love this look…I adore this woman… I want this woman to be mine, to live with me, to kiss me, to feel the same way as I do. Oh my goodness…this blonde hair, this silk hair, these brown eyes, this smile…this is what drives me insane…She’s my inspiration, I can’t do anything without her.
I don’t want this perfect moment to end. ..Me, looking into her eyes, she, looking into mines…But she’s here to talk I guess. I have to treat her right, I have to do everything right
“Oh. Hi! I’m sorry, come in.”- I finally manage to say. She nods and enters the house.
“Sit down here” – I say, pointing the sofa. She thanks me and then sits.
I sit next to her. Nobody of us wants to speak. This kind of silence is killing me. I badly want to say something.  But everything erased from my brain like I had a brain wash. I look into her eyes once again…Oh my God… I adore her; I adore this look. Why can’t she just marry me, not that jerk, why!?
“I’m sorry for leaving the party the day before. I was just feeling…feeling s-sick”- I decide to break this awkward silence. And that’s the way I did it. Wait! What?! I already lied to her. What’s happening to me, oh my Gosh? Now, I’m so afraid of her answer. She takes a deep breath, ready to say something, but then stops. It scares me even more. What can I do?
“Um…you’re sure you felt…sick?” – She asks looking at me.
Oh. Look at her. She’s a goddess alive sitting in front of me. I’m like an idiot. I don’t know what to say. She got me. She’s too smart.
“Yes, kinda” – I say, smiling.
“You’re lying” –She yells.
She realized it. How could she?!
She’s what I’ve dreamt all my life. I love her and I have to tell that her. But also I must try my best not to ruin our friendship. I’m ready.
I take her little hands in mines, looking right into her eyes. She’s so scared what I might say. But I hope she’ll understand me.
I’m so scared…Once more I look down at our hands and then into her eyes.
“I love you” – I whisper “I’m in love with you” – I’m saying this. Don’t stop, Adam, don’t stop “Every time I look at you, I feel like you’re the best woman in the entire world. I’ve never felt this way before. I was so cold hearted. My heart is broken. And my heart breaks even more when I think you’re marrying. I’m in love with you Shaki...I-I really-really love you”- There, I confessed it. As I end what I’ saying, I see her face becoming white.

Shakira’s POV

“I love you” he says, “I have feelings for you…” My mind darkens. What does it mean? That’s why he left the party. That’s why he had been avoiding me these 2 days. I have to give the right answer. He needs help.
“What can I do for you? “– I say, looking at him, hoping an answer I can really do…
No words. I’m starting to worry…C’mon…Say something, Adam…
I open my mouth, trying to say something, but only a gasp comes out. My heart is in my throat…Oh my God, what can I do for him?
I close my eyes…and then everything happens so suddenly. Once I open my eyes and see him even closer and then his lip are pressed against mines.
I don’t want this to happen. I don’t want break everything we made. But it’s happening. I just close my eyes, as he continues kissing. What should I do? Should I give up? I understand this is the way he feels better…but the fact is…I’m cheating on my boyfriend, which I do not want to happen. I want the moment to end. I’m feeling so guilty. What am I going to say to Gerard? But in the other hand Adam is my friend, plus, he’s so heartbroken because of me. ..Oh my God…Everything is so bad, so hard. I can’t help it already. I push him away from myself. I already feel tears forming in my eyes. He looks down.
“I’m sorry” –He finally manages to say.
What am I going to do? What?!
“How…h-how could you? “ – I say. I feel so betrayed. I’m so lost. “ I thought you-you were m-my best friend” – I continue with a shaky voice. I make him feel worse. I don’t want these words to come out of my mouth, but they do. I don’t want to stay here any longer. I grab my handbag and rush out of his house, As soon as I’m outside I let my tears come out with sobs. I can’t hold them back. I’ve lost my best friend. I don’t think we can be that close anymore. Plus, I have a boyfriend and I’ve just cheated on him. He doesn’t deserve it…Oh my God, what am I going to do?

Adam’s POV

I couldn’t help but kiss her. I knew I would hurt her, but I couldn’t help anymore. When we broke apart I saw her watery eyes. I didn’t mean to hurt her.
“How…h-how could you? I thought you-you were m-my best friend”- She says. As soon as I hear these words, my heart breaks into a million pieces. I’ve ruined everything. And there’s no way I can make this okay. She’s right. How could I? She has a boyfriend, they are going to marry, and now…what I’ve done? I ruined not only our friendship, but also her new created family. I’m so lost. I just wanted to feel better. But why did I do that this way? When I’m going to learn to think? Now, I’m pretty sure she hates me.
How could I…Oh my God, I’m idiot…

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