I stared at the blade I've used so many times before. Many thoughts raced through my mind, but I only listened to one. 'I need it and nobody would care' I hesitated but only for a second, then cut my wrist for every flaw I have. A few minutes later I stopped. I now have many cuts on both my wrists and I only stopped 'cause there's a big pool of blood on the floor and the sink, plus I was getting dizzy. I put my wrists under cold water and bandaged them, then cleaned up the floor and sink with toilet paper. Now there's a bunch bloody toilet paper in the trash! How am I going to hide that? Hmm, I guess I won't. Finally finished with cleaning, I walked out of the bathroom and fell asleep on my bed, fully clothed.
It went on like this for weeks, I would cut myself and didn't eat, unless they made me then I would throw it back up. And surprisingly, nobody asked about the bandages on my wrists. I've also been cutting on my stomach but I made sure I didn't cut the mark on my side. Right, it's the late afternoon, so "dinner" should be soon and I'm currently sitting under a tree in the garden. I laid my head back on the ruff bark of the tree and closed my eyes, thinking about my parents, when the song I Miss You/Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne popped into my head. I began to sing it quietly.
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Na na, na na na, na na
I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again, I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me, 'cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I've had my wake up, won't you wake up
I keep asking why?
And I can't take it, it wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere you're not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you
II stopped singing when I head someone approaching. I opened my eyes and looked the way the sound was coming from. Just Sebastian. I stood up and brushed my pants off. "Miss (y/n), Young master wants to see you." Sebastian gave me a worried look and I heard him mutter "Why, (y/n)?" before I walked away. Why's he worried? And why does Ciel wanna see me? Maybe he noticed the bandages? No, I doubt it. Then why does he wanna see me? Maybe I did something wrong without realizing it? Or does he want me to leave because he doesn't like me hanging around? Is he going to make me leave?
Okay, so if you guys can't tell, she doesn't remember her past correctly so she doesn't remember exactly where she lived and who she was, just thought I should tell you just in case you didn't realize that
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The Girl Who Lived A Lie
Fiksi Penggemar5 Years. That's how long (y/n) has been living a lie. A sad, lonely lie. When (y/n) was 9 yrs. old, her parents were burned before her eyes. Then her memories were manipulated, messed with. And now, she has a false past. But deep down, she might rem...
