Lost & Found (Beatles Fan Fiction)

Chapter 11

I had to admit that I was having a great time. Linda and I were playing with the girls while the guys talked and fiddled around with their instruments. There were a few occasions where I heard Paul and Ringo have an impromptu Beatles medley. It was fantastic. John would play along, but didn't contribute many vocals. Harry was trying hard to get close to Elise. He played with her and she seemed to enjoy that. The weather was beautiful and the girls were able to get into the pool. I changed into my bathing suit and got in with them. Elise had gone to swimming classes since she was a little girl but she was still intimidated to be in the pool without me. Linda was also in the pool with the girls. We talked a bit about motherhood-the good, the bad and the ugly, shared stories and exchanged motherly advice. The topic of John being Elise's father never came up. The topic of Harry, however, did. 

"So what's going on with you and Harry?" she asked quietly.

Her question caught me by surprise. My face said it all.

She chuckled. " Don't worry...it's not evident on your part, but I can tell Harry is very into you."

"You can?"

"Yes...but what about you? Are the feelings mutual?"

I hesitated. "I'm not sure Linda. The truth is that since Elise was born, I haven't really had what you'd call a love life. Working and taking care of Elise was basically my life. When John came back into the picture, things pretty much changed...my life got more complicated than it had been in a long time...I met Harry and he's been a sweetheart towards me. He's taken an interest in me despite everything and that's more than I can say for other guys, even before the whole John thing resurfaced. And well...you know, despite being a mother, I'm also a woman who longs for the physical contact of a man..."

"I understand Mirel...and there's nothing wrong with that. Can I ask you something else?"

I nodded.

"Where does John fall in all of this? Do you still have feelings for him?"

"The dreaded question." I chuckled nervously. " I thought I didn't...but now I am not sure." 

"Why?" 

"If I tell you, do you promise not to tell anyone...not even Paul?" I pleaded. 

"Of course. Woman's honor." 

"I slept with John." I confessed. 

"Oh." was all Linda responded. 

"I didn't have any intention of doing so." I tried to justify myself. 

"You don't need to excuse yourself for that, Mirel...I'm not judging you. I promise." 

I sighed. "I was in such a vulnerable state Linda...and having John there with me brought back so many memories...and to top it off I hadn't been with a man in so long....it was as if my body was just aching for him....but afterwards...well I couldn't disconnect my physical needs with my emotions...they were intertwined...it was as if the feelings I had for John came back to haunt me."

"Does Harry know."

"No! What's worse is that the night it happened, I was supposed to go out on a date with Harry....t's a long story, but I had to cancel with Harry due to an emergency with Elise...and well, John came over...and you know the rest."

"Would you have slept with Harry that night?" Linda asked.

"Maybe...I don't know...."

"Did you talk to John about what happened afterwards?"

"Yes...and now the asshole is holding it over my head, telling me he's going to tell Harry that the night I cancelled on him, I was sleeping with John!"