Seven | Book 1 (An EXO fiction)

42.

It turns out that Junmyeon actually knows a whole lot about literally everything. After my little breakdown, I got the chance to ask him the stupid little questions that I'd always been curious about. It took a few minutes of me convincing him that 'yes, I really am crying about the sky' and 'no, I promise it's nothing more than that'.

He went on to answer my other questions with obvious skepticism, and in order to distract both him and myself I made sure to bring up any random question I could think of. After I had stopped crying enough to actually listen to his explanation about why the sky is blue, he went on to explain why it was that I can't lick my own elbow.

He went ahead and showed me that it was possible by doing it himself. He's a not a fucking person I'm telling you. He's like...an alien. Not real. I don't know how he's here on this planet. When I asked why it is that I can't do it, he gave me a dull ass answer.

Apparently I lack both the shoulder flexibility and tongue length to do it.

I also learned that Junmyeon has quite a long tongue. He can touch his nose with it too. I had to quickly change the topic and force him to stop showing me his freakishly long tongue before my thoughts roamed places where they shouldn't during a lesson of all things.

I asked if he knew how many stars were in the sky (lots, and they're probably all dead at this point he said rather bluntly); I asked if he knew any of the old languages (he does, he taught himself a bit of Korean; whatever that is). When I asked if he believed if it's possible to be in love with more than one person at a time (it was in no way specific and I was merely curious as to what he thought so don't get any ideas) he gave a rather long answer.

"I believe so. Especially in times like this. Finding affection and having it actually be love is so hard these days that it wouldn't be hard to fall for multiple people...then again it is hard to find actual love, so maybe it's consequently harder to be in love with more than one person. Many people confuse love for other things. It's not uncommon for it to actually only be a kind of selfishness. A selfishness of not wanting to let both of the people you love go. You want to keep them both because you like the attention and affections they can provide, but that not love. That's just seeking and finding comfort in attention. Love...love is different. It's hard to put in to words," he chuckled softly.

"Have you ever been in love Junmyeon?"

He scoffs. "No."

"You don't seem to think of it very highly. Do you even believe in love?"

"It's not that I don't believe it exists it's just...I don't believe that it's as easy to find and keep as people make it out to be. Love is...love is a kind of unconditional trust and connection that doesn't just come by and stay. It's not easy to be in love. When you love you have to work to keep it. When you don't put in the effort it's easy to "fall out" of love. People let lust and passion drive them into relationships and they label it love, but as soon as the passion fades they don't stay.

"Love is hard and people don't get that. It's supposed to hurt. You're supposed to cry. You're supposed to get mad at one another because that just shows how much you really love each other. If you don't drive each other crazy, then can you really call it love? I don't think so. You have to learn to accept the good and bad of each other and that doesn't mean that you even have to love everything about them, but you have to love them regardless. Love is difficult and it can test every nerve in your body. Do I believe it exists? Yes. Do I believe that many people have genuinely experienced it? No. I don't think that I will either. It's too much work, and I don't think that I could get myself to accept every part of a person just because I love them. I don't work that way."