Seven | Book 1 (An EXO fiction)

49.

"Physically...you're perfectly fine."

"See? I'm fine. You heard it from Yixing yourselves. Can I be left alone now?" I cross my arms over my chest and give Tao and Sehun a straight face that I hope conveys how over all of their unnecessary worrying I am.

Sehun gives Yixing a frown and the older shrugs noncommittally. If Yixing says that there isn't anything wrong with me, then there's nothing wrong with me. That's that.

"I need to talk to her in private for moment. Could you two leave for a bit?"

"Why?"

"Unless you want to sit here and listen to boring blood pressure and health statistics then you might want to leave." At that Tao immediately stands up and walks out of Yixing's room. My mouth twitches at his hasty retreat after being the jackass to ask the question in the first place. Sehun's exit is less abrupt. He stalls in the doorway before Tao physically pulls him out of the room.

Yixing's soft smile drops as soon as they're gone.

What the hell?

"I know about the binge eating," he says with a hint of parental scolding in his voice. I feel the blood drain from my face at having been caught. How did he even find out about it? My stomach drops at the sudden shame at having Yixing of all people calling me out about it.

"I don't know what you're talking ab-"

"Your body is showing very obvious signs of an eating disorder. There's slight acidic damage to the inside of your mouth. Meaning, you've been vomiting profusely. Even if the signs weren't visible in your mouth I know that you've been severely exhausted and you haven't been sleeping well. Both Junmyeon and Minseok told me they had their suspicions, but they didn't want to jump to conclusions," he explains. They knew? I avoid his eyes.

"Why didn't you tell Sehun and Tao while they were in here?"

He takes a seat beside me and places a hand on my shoulder. A numbing sadness washes over me like cold water. "I figured this was something that you'd want to keep private. And, no one ever really listens to advice when they're basically in an intervention. I just want to warn you that no matter what you think this is doing to help you, it's doing far more damage to your psyche and body than it is good."

"I don't do it anymore," I admit. I know that he probably won't believe me, but I want to at least have the truth out there. "I did...a lot. I won't lie about that. But I don't do it like that anymore. I know it's bad, and I'm trying to stop. I swear."

He gives a look that's filled with concern and uneasiness. "You're really not looking too good, you know? Mentally I mean. I'm not great at picking up mental illnesses but...you need to take it easy June. Before you go off the deep end. I don't know if it's stress or what, but you need to recuperate. I'm worried about how your mind is handling everything going on around you right now."

"I'm okay. I'll take it easy though. Thanks Yixing." He smiles and squeezes my shoulder supportively. Feeling thoroughly shamed and guilt filled, I flee from the room.

Go off the deep end huh? Pfft, I'm not going to go off the "deep end". I'm perfectly fine. A few...emotional slips have happened yeah, but 8 times out of 10 I'm as well as ever.

"There you are!" Jongdae slides in front of me with a light smile on his face. I narrow my eyes at the pleased expression on his face. He's never like...happy to see me. "I need to talk to you."

Ah there it is.

"Um, okay?" I glance around for Sehun and Tao who I expected to be waiting outside of the door for me. Why weren't they waiting for me? I turn my attention back to Jongdae after pushing away the unhappiness of actually being abandoned by the two clingiest people I know.