January's POV
"Nandito na ang slut!"
"Ang kapal talaga ng mukha!"
"Paano niya kaya nakuha si Romeo?"
"Duh! She's slut kasi hindi na tayo mag-tataka. Kahit sino lang naman ang pinapatulan niyan eh!"
"Oo nga kaya prone to Aids na 'yan!"
"I believe siya ay may aida, I believe siya ay si January."
"Shh! Hinaan mo 'yang boses mo bakla! Marinig ka pa niyan eh!"
I'm on my way to my classroom at 'yan ang halos maririnig kong bulong-bulongan ng mga studyante dito sa corridor. Let me scratch that, hindi talaga bulong-bulongan more like pasaring.
And obviously ako ang pinag-uusapan nila.
"Slut" "Bitch" "Manwhore" "fuckgirl" "pokpok" "solotera" "prone to aids" at ang pinakabobo na tawag nila sa akin
"Prostitute." Hinarap ko ang isa sa mga studyante rito na tumawag sa akin ng prostitute. Kinuha ko ang aking phone sa aking bag at pumunta agad sa Meriam Webster.
"Prostitute, noun, a person who has sex with someone in exchange for money." I turned off my phone then looked straight to the girl.
"Yes, I'm slut but definitely not a prosti. I don't do sex for money I do sex for fun and pleasures." I smiled at her shocked face.
"Remember that okay? Para Hindi ka bobo paringan." after I said those I left her dumfounded together with her alalays.
Nasanay na riyan ang aking tenga.
Usually, I ignore the people who talk shits to me. I just walk and pass them with my head held high wearing my smile like I'm so honored to be called such names like I always do.
This is one of my daily routine.
But today I just feel like giving a little lecture to a dumb girl earlier. Because she doesn't know what a prostitute means. I was glad to help though.
What they said earlier were all true. Well, except with what the dumb girl said. I'm definitely not a prostitute. I'm slut and I don't freakn deny it. Hindi kasi ako 'yung tipong malakas manghusga sa iba pero may tinatago rin naman pa'lang mas masahol na personalidad.
I love fucking with some random guy I met. And never in my life I had a serious relationship and I don't have plan for that.
I'm just enjoying every pleasure of it!
I don't want to die without experiencing the thing they called 'heaven'.
And one thing, I am already tired of being a good-kind of girl, I am tired of being weak.
"January Vegas! I heard it was Romeo Smith! The ultimate varsity player and the ultimate crush ng bayan!" My ever chismosa friend greeted me with that 'tsismis'.
And as usual napatingin sa akin ang mga kaklase ko at ang iba pa ay nagbulong-bulongan nang makapasok na ako sa classroom.
I just shrug.
Yeah! The 'ultimate varsity player' and the 'ultimate crush ng bayan'
What my friend Shaneen talking? Well ang naikama ko lang naman kagabi.
Did I said earlier I fuck every guy I met? Well yeah! And the guys I met were not just 'a guy'. I still have my standards! Hindi lang ako nakipag-sex sa mga lalaking nasa tabi-tabi lang ew!
I fucked guys who were mostly famous with looks. Not just 'looks' but the drop dead gorgeous one.
Of course I'm gorgeous dapat may magandang taste pa rin ako sa mga lalaki.
Bitch please! I'm slut with a class.
Isa 'yan sa ikinagagalit ng mga tao sa akin, mostly girls. They're not mad because I'm just plain slut, they're mad because I fucked their crushes.
Dahil ang mga idols nila nakukuha ko lang sa isang tingin samantalang sila hangang tingin lang. Poor bitches.
Sila hangang pangarap lamang, ako abot na abot ko 'yung pangarap nila without wasting a single drop of my sweat.
Those people who called me slut and other names earlier was nothing but a trying hard-insecure-hypocrite with a cheap breed animals.
"Yeah just Romeo Smith." I confirmed her at pumunta na sa aking upuan ignoring the eyes of the people inside this room.
If looks could only kill then I am already a cold body right now.
Too bad. Hindi nakakamatay ang tingin.
"No fuckn' way!" Manghang sambit ni Shaneen habang sinusundan ako.
And I don't know with this girl she's always surprise by the guys I fucked.
"So how was it?" Nasasabik niyang tanong pag-kaupo na pag-kaupo namin sa aming upuan at siya ay nakaharap sa akin.
Nangingibabaw na naman 'tong pagka chismosa niya.
I faced her "It was..." Sabi ko sabay acting na nag-iisip.
Tumingin ako sa kumikislap niyang mga mata na parang sabik na sabik sa aking sagot.
"...good" I cut her excitement with that plain and emotionless answer.
As expected her bright face turned into frown she's totally disappointed.
"Ang daya mo naman January eh! Akala ko matino na 'yung sagot mo! Palagi nalang good yung sagot mo sa akin!" parang nag-tatampo niyang sabi.
"What can I do? 'yan naman ang totoo." sagot ko ta's humarap na sa harapan.
"Tss, kelan kaba titigil sa hobby mong 'yan at humanap na ng matinong boyfriend that will really long lasts?" This is the real Shaneen, the serious one.
"Wala akong planong titigil dahil masaya ako sa ginagawa ko." giit ko
Pinikit ko 'yung aking mga mata para makaiwas na sa mga pangangaral ni Shaneen.
Agad naman akong napadilat nang maramdaman kong hinawakan ni Shaneen 'yung isang kamay ko kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.
"I know you're not happy Jan." seryoso niyang sabi
Kaya napangiwi na lamang ako at kinuha 'yung kamay kong hinahawakan niya.
"Get your hands off me dude! Di tayo talo!" Biro ko nalamang
"Di kaba natatakot na mabuntis? Worse mag-karoon ka ng AIDS?" Concerned niyang tanong
"I used protection" I calmly said at ibinalik ulit ang tingin sa harap
"riiiiing* atlast save by the bell
May tumawag ky Shaneen kaya naibaling 'yung attention niya sa caller
"Hello babe!" And now she's back to her jolly side
"Ok babe! Wait for me there!" Aniya saka natapos ang tawag
"Jan text mo 'ko pag-andito na si prof. ha, pupuntahan ko pa si babes sa baba eh!" masiglang sambit niya saka siya lumabas na ng room.
She's my only real friend. Iba si Shaneen sa lahat ng tao siya lang ang hindi humuhusga sa pag-katao ko. Siya lang din ang may tiwala na mag-babago ako. Funny thing is, mas may tiwala pa sya kesa sa aking sarili.
Shaneen and I were also different. Shaneen was into serious relationships. She believes in forever and happy endings while me?
Serious relationships for me is some sort kind of a joke.
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