Hidden Smile

The day

Lunch was over. Noooo come back lunch, I don't want Physics! I'm not good at it. At least you have it with Harry and after school you guys will go to the library. Well that's by far the only bonus about it. It makes me hink, how could something be a bonus when there is no good at all...

I'm so struggling with liking him and having a crush on him, but I really want to forget about him. Eventhough I  don't want to, but the bell already rang so I've got to go to Physics bleh. 

''Josh the bell rang, I gotta go now!'' I said with no emotion in my voice, how so? Oh, yeah because PHYSICS!

''Alright I have to go too. I think I'm gonna talk to Sophie, because I can't handle thinking of it for the rest of the day. It's torturing me and it would be torturing me for the rest of the day if I don't say something soon!'' Josh said with all the courage, and confidence in his voice. Sounded like he was convincing himself to go talk with Soph instead of convincing me.

''Good for you! Talk to you later. I'll call you when I'm back from the Library later tonight!'' I said with a bit of excitement. Going to the library with my crush, yay!

''What do you mean, silly? We always walk back home together, remember?'' He smiled with showing his snowwhite teeth. 

''Oh, I think I forgot to tell you that I'm going to the library with Harry for the English assignment we got.'' I said quickly because I had to go to my class. Since it was already time to go and I was already kinda late. An maybe because I didn't want Josh to get mad, but why would he? 

''Oh, Oka-''

''We gotta gooooo! Come on, Jay.'' Gennie said to me very enthousisatic. She loves Physics, unlike me. It might have something to do with our new 'hot' substitute teacher, who am I kidding, of course it has to do everything with our new substitute teacher.

''I'm sorry Josh we gotta go talk to you later!'' I smiled in the hope he wouldn't be angry or something. Why would he? I mean it isn't bad if I'm going to the Library, right? Well we'll see.

Two periods of Physics went slower than a snail trying to run a marathon. Or whatever movement snails make. The only things I got, were some things about the refraction of light and stuff. In other news; I caught Harry looking at me FOR REAL. No I'm not crazy! I'm so Happy. Oh my god wait, maybe he saw me staring at him too. He will think I have crush on him. He cannot think that. Okay, I do have a crush on him, but he doesn't  know! Dammit. Do I make sense? probably not. No time for thinking though.

Schools out. Finally! Harry time du du du du. Did you see what I did there, lol I'm so stupid.

As I was walking to the playground to look for Harry, it turned out he found me first.

"Coming?" He smiled with showing his nice white teeth.

"Oh hey, I was looking for you! I'm coming." He scared me, not that he's scary it's just I didn't see him and he just showed up out of nowhere, but I ended up laughing.

"Do you wanna come with me for a sec, gotta go get my bike so we can go to the library. " He said with his raspy voice. Oh god he is one chunk of cutie-pie-ness. I declare cutie-pie-ness as a word. All in favor... Settled! Confirmed by me, you'll thank me one day!

"Of course, where did you put it?" I said with a little excitement in my voice. I hope he didn't notice. How would he take it? Nah, I'm not gonna worry and just going to enjoy. I get annoyed by my own insecurities sometimes.

"Right there behind the fence." He replied.

"Kaykay, should we... go?" I said with a little pause, quite nervous too; we're going to be together, ALONE. Quite a big deal. For me.