After so many days, months, years of confusion, feeling like I was trapped. Trapped in the pain, the feeling of the world caving in on me. Losing someone you love isn't something you think you could deal with. Sometimes it hurts and it does a lot. Sometimes you don't even know what you're feeling. Everyone is walking by laughing and talking but all you can do is stare. You're not sure about anything anymore, what was there to laugh about? When you start asking yourself this question that's when you know you've gone numb. Being numb is probaly the worse feeling you could ever have. Feeling nothing not even pain that's when you know you've truly disappeared.
That's what I thought at the time. After it all I had realized that maybe I wasn't truly gone. Being with Austin, the bad starts to fade away. You start to see your choices again which path is good and which one isn't. I'm no longer blind, it may hurt sometimes but that's life. One thing that I was right about was when you lose someone you can't just move on. Not fully anyways, they'll always be there in you're heart somewhere deep inside your mind. Those days when they come to the surface bringing the pain with it, all it takes is something small to make it go away. I know I still have some healing to do but I have my small change. One smile, one laugh, one kiss and one " I love you" is my small change. With him it always will be.
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We Met Because Of Death
RomantikAustin Taylor's life falls apart when his girlfriend Brittany dies. Years later he still morns over the lost of her. Haylee Seville struggles as tragedy strikes taking her fiance away from her. Years later his murder is still not solved and she is s...
