I had gotten up extremely early out of excitement for my grand opening of the orphanage, I can't wait for the kingdom to see all the work I've spent on it. Fridrik even agreed to let Zora stay so she could see it. More importantly I'm beyond excited to have Raidyn see all the work, effort, and heart I put into this. This is my first serious project as Queen to improve the kingdom and I love being queen. I love my people they are a priority below Raidyn and my sons and I want to make them proud. I haven't been all that involved this past year since I've had two pregnancies and that excused me from board meetings and judgement--for this project I didn't take a lot out of me and I was able to work on it from home with a coordinator. On free days where I felt great I would even go into the village and facilitate the work.
I shake Raidyn awake. "Today's the orphanage's grand opening." I say excited.
"Byrd, what time is it?" Raidyn groans, turning over.
"Eight." I frown. "I couldn't sleep." I kiss his neck slowly and lovingly. "Come on, you mean to tell me you're tired?"
"I went to bed at six." He exhales and stretches his arms.
"Couldn't sleep?" I rest my head on the other half of his pillow and brush his hair out of his face. "Something on your mind?"
"No, I just had a ton of energy. Nothing to worry about." He turns to me and softly brushes my hair back.
I kiss him gently and smile. "Go back to sleep then." I soothe.
"I'm up for the day now. I think that I'm now processing the excite for the day. This is amazing news! I've been dying to see the orphanage." He grins from ear to ear.
I smile so wide my cheeks start to hurt. "I really hope you like it." My heart is beating so fast. "I hope all our people like it too, I'm so nervous."
"They'll love it. I know you did a great job. You've been dedicating so much of your time to it."
I nod my head and before I can speak Ries starts to cry. I look to Raidyn. "You can get him, I'm afraid I'm going to shock him."
Raidyn gets up and takes care of Ries. "You know you can't be afraid to shock everyone. Man, I wish Duck was here so he could come up with some tonic to fix it."
"Me too." I sigh.
Ever since I shocked Raidyn I've been thinking about how scared I am for it to happen again, especially at the worst times like feeding Ries, hugging Astrid, having sex with Raidyn. This baby is strong and it scares and worries me more than anything. My children mean the world to me and if something were to happen--if a sacrifice had to be made, I don't know what I would do. I would gladly lay down my life for Ries or Hollis, but if I can selfishly say so, I don't want to leave this earth yet. I want more time with my husband I want to see my children grow into adults, I want more. Life is just starting to get good--I don't want anything bad to happen to any of us.
I head over to my wardrobe to get dressed for the day. I put on one of the maternity dressed I conjured up when I was pregnant with Ries--it's simple and elegant. I brush my long hair back and decide to put half of it up in a braid. I place my black diamond crown on top of my head, put on a little makeup and I'm good for the day. I know I have to look queenly and presentable for the grand opening which is this afternoon. All of our friends are attending to which has me over the moon. I look over at Raidyn who is still tending to Riesner.
"I know I can't go the rest of this pregnancy without touching Ries, but what if I severely hurt him?" I frown and sigh. "I won't be able to live with knowing I injured our baby." I walk over to Raidyn and look over at our son.
