Raidyn
There are not many things I absolutely can't stand in this life and the top one is when people see my queen as weak.
Byrd and I haven't been seeing much of each other and to our people, they think there's something wrong- they think that Byrd isn't strong enough to handle the loss of the baby. They don't know Byrd like I do. They think that she is frail and that she needs me for this, but she is pushing me away; she doesn't need me. Byrd has gone through so much shit in her life that this is how she handles things; alone. She handles her problems alone as I rule alone most of the time, it's what we both are accustomed to. She knows as well as I do that we are always there to support one another if needed, but that's the thing- she doesn't need me and she might never really need me. Byrd is a survivor, she hangs in there, she is so breathtakingly badass and I wish our people saw this and knew her the way I do.
When you have already have experienced loss and tragedy in your life, you know what is important; family is the highest for the both of us. Byrd and I know pain, we know each other's pain by now, and we will get through everything together, but that doesn't mean she needs me to get her there. My queen can do it for herself. We are not the only two who have been hurt in this realm and we aren't the last. Some people need others, but for people like Byrd and even Raven- now that I think about it, they are good on their own. They are warriors in their own shining light even when the light is damaged and flickering.
Both babies are knocked completely out when I wake up an hour or two earlier than normal. Just hovering above Hollis makes him stir and eventually blink his eyes open. I know he recognizes me, he knows of my powers and I can detect his whenever he uses them. Thankful he's not strong enough to do much other than rain for a minute. I scoop him into my arms and take a seat in the nursery to hum him back to sleep. "I didn't mean to wake you up, buddy." I whisper as his blue eyes fall heavy. His hair has turned from a dark-brownish-red to a redder color. Size-wise, Hollis is just about as big as Riesner now. Before Byrd and I know it this little guy will be running around too. I am not sure about talking and when that will develope for Hollis in comparison to Ries, I must remind myself to ask Duckman about it later.
Since my thoughts passed by Raven, it made me realize that her wedding is finally here. The jitters have gone through the kingdom all week and the drama only has seemed to build as all the royals returned occupying an entire wing. The wedding is going to be more intimate than Byrd and I's and it's going to take place outside near the gardens. Cal couldn't be any happier, I don't think I've ever seen a guard so smiley before in my life, but I'm glad- that's the way it's supposed to be. I hope Raven truly found her soulmate. I wish all the love and happiness in the world to my baby sister. Raven doesn't look pregnant to me, not yet at least, so I doubt anyone outside of the alliance knows or will ever know of her little secret, besides Duckman and the whispering chambermaids of course. Raven dug out my mother's wedding gown and is wearing it, she had it altered a little bit since Raven is thinner than my mother was, but it's probably because Raven might be an inch or two taller than she was, it's hard for me to remember my mother's exact height to know for sure. Off-white, simple, and it really shows off Raven's silhouette nicely; all comments Byrd said to me after the final fitting which I would've went to had I not been so busy with the kingdom and planning. I don't know what Raven looks like all dressed up yet, but I will find out for myself in a couple of hours since I was given the honor of walking her down the aisle. I feel a tad bit emotional and I'm going to try not to become a complete sap when I see her, but it might be unavoidable for me. In my mind I will always picture her as a tiny princess holding our parents hands, giggling as they swing her while we all walk through the village of our kingdom. I can't believe that we've grown up this fast, that we are having children and soon she'll be swinging hers around like that. I'm going to be an uncle. Raven has so much going for her and I will protect her and her little family at all costs, no one deserves this as much as she does- to show compassion to all despite being locked away for years and toyed with afterwards, she definitely deserves it.
