Is It The End? *Matthew Espinosa/Shawn Mendes*

chapter twenty

I woke up, next to Shawn, naked under the covers. He was up, just watching me sleep. "Goodmoring beautiful." I kissed his cheek, "Goodmorning." I stood up, not even caring if he saw me naked, grabbing my clothes and putting them back on. "You can take a shower if you want?" I laughed, "I know, but I will in a little." He nodded.

He stood up, grabbing some boxers and sweats, putting them on really quick. I lied down on the bed and we just watched tv, laying in silence together. "Let's do something today." He smiled, "Like skipping school?" I laughed, "I mean after. We have like 20 minutes until we have to leave." I stood up, walking into the bathroom, stripping off my clothes again, stepping into the warm shower.

I washed my body and then got out, to Shawn in the bathroom, naked. I got out and he went in. We were ready within ten minutes and went downstairs. I grabbed a poptart and he jusst copied. We got in the car because it was now time to leave. We went to school and pulled in next to Taylor's car. Him and Joey were in the car, making out. 

I leaned over Shawn, honking the horn. They both jumped, looking our way. I couldn't help but laugh, Shawn joining in shortly after. Taylor and Joey were both blushing. They're adorable. I got out the car, Shawn following. Jo and Tay got out of their car too. We all walked into the building together. They were holding hands. 

People kept staring and I kept getting dirty looks from every girl. It didn't bother me at first but now it was starting to get to me. I knew as soon as people found out I had sex with him, no one would respect me anymore. I whispered into Shawn's arm, "Why are people staring?" He shook his head, whispering back, "I have no idea."

He grabbed my hand. "I love you. Don't worry about them." I smiled, not even saying it back. "Babe, you okay?" I nodded, walking over to Joey, grabbing his hand and walking away with him.

"What's wrong Lexi?" I shook my head. "Alexa." I looked away. "Tell me." I started getting tears in my eyes. "I had sex with Shawn last night. I feel guilty. I feel like I shouldn't have but it was just in the moment. I didn't want to say no. I didn't want him to hate me. Now I'm starting to hate myself." Joey looked at me in the eyes. "Don't say that. Just lay low for a while and see where things take you. i'm sure it will all plan out."

"I just miss Matt so much. I kinda wish I didn't break up with him." joey kissed my cheek, "It will be okay Lexi." I nodded, giving him a hug, letting a few tears roll down my cheeks. I walked to my locker and grabbed my books, walking to class, not talking to anyone. I kind of avoided Shawn as much as I could until lunch.

I walked into the lunch room, getting my lunch, even though I wasn't hungry. I sat at a table by myself. Wondering who would sit by me. I just put my head down, pushing my food away. I felt someone sit next to me. "Alexa, you have to eat. What's wrong with you?" I noticed the voice. Taylor.

"Taylor, I don't know what to do anymore. I miss Matt, but I like Shawn. I love Matt. I just don't know what to do.." He grabbed me, pulling me into a hug. Joey walked up, sitting next to Taylor, at our round lunch table. I felt someone sit on the other side; Shawn.

"Alexa, what's wrong?" I gave a fake smile, trying to make it as believable as possible. "Nothing, babe. What are you talking about?" I kissed his lips. He looked confused. "You just seemed so down earlier." I shook my head, "Nah, I'm good."

"Why aren't you eating?" I shrugged my shoulders, "Not hun-" I was cut off by someone yelling through the lunch room. I didn't think anything of it, until I heard the yell getting closer and closer. I turned around, seeing Matthew!

"Alexa?! What the hell are you doing?!" His yelling was loud. "What are you talking about?!" His face was bright red. He looked pissed. "You left me, for this douche bag?!" I stood up, "Don't talk about him like that!!"

"You're probably only sticking up for him because you fucked him, just like you did me!" Everyone gasped. He walked over, grabbing Shawn's head from behind, pulling it back and smacking it on the table. I screamed. "MATT STOP!!!" I didn't want to leave Shawn their because I knew Matt would beat his ass, but I couldn't stand it. I got up and ran out of te lunch room, someone following but I didn't even care.