Players Regret

Chapter 3

Dj P.O.V

When Lauren told me they found Quanae. My heart was at a stand still. I ain't know what to say. I know she was gonna be pissed at me for leaving. I told them to bring her to my house. Before I left, I paid my rent up to seven months, and all my bills so I straight for a minute. When I got to my house, everything was the same. Just how I left it.

I wanted to take a shower, but I was to anxious to see my girl. While I was deep in my thoughts, there was a knock at the door. I quickly went to open it and my eyes went into shock.

"Quanae?" I called her name. She stood there eyeing me like she didn't know what to do. Her face wasn't bruised, but she had bags under eyes, her make up was smeared, her clothes were ripped. I swear you woulda thought she was a crackhead trying to get their fix.

"Dj?" She asked looking at me like she's seen a ghost. More tears started flowing down her eyes. Her eyes quickly turned red, and she started acting up, like she wanted to attack me. My mama and Lauren was holding her back, but she kept jumping to me like she wanted to kill me. "I FUCKING HATE YOU! YOUR A LOW BASTARD! THIS IS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT! YOU LEFT ME DEMONTAE! YOU LEFT ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU THE MOST! You left me..." Her voice lowered the last time she said it, and she just broke down. She was laying on the ground crying and shaking.

I went to grab her, but she snatched her arm away from me. Lauren looked at me with tears in her eyes. She shook her head and walked away. I guess she didn't wanna harm her baby with the anger she had for me.

"I'm so damn disappointed in you Demontae Jones. Instead of handling problems like a man, your ass left like a god damn coward. Didn't I raise you to where times got hard, you stay and stick shit out until they became easy enough for you to bare? You left this poor girl. and now she's going to be damaged. Do you see her?" She asked while looking me in my face. I didn't wanna look down at her, because I knew she was hurting. "LOOK DAMNIT!" Mama snatched my face to Quanae's direction. "You cried about getting this girl back every damn day! EVERYDAY! When you get her back, you leave? Anything could have happened to any of us. Let me go before I beat the hell out of you. Come on Quanae." Mama began helping her up.

Quanae looked back at me, with lost, hurt, and damage in her eyes. I felt hella bad. Hearing this shit, and seeing it, made my heart break. I just shook my head, and sat in my door frame and did a thing you rarely see a man do. I cried...

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Quanae P.O.V

I didn't mean to be a big baby in this situation, but I was truly hurt. How could someone that claims they love me, leave me for three damn months. Within them three months, I went threw hell. Wondering whether or not I was going to die, or if I was going to be there for the rest of my life. I literally lived everyday by faith while staying at that place.

When we got back to Ms. Jones house, They lead me to the bathroom, and closed me in it. Lauren put me some clothes on the sink with new underwear, perfume, lotion, and body wash. I took at least a forty five minute shower. Throughout my shower, I washed every part of me. All the dirt, all the memories from being at that bitch house. All my hurt. All the negativity out my life. I wanna forgive Dj, I really do, but it'll take time.

Once I was finished, I got out the shower and I oiled my body, then put on deodorant. I brushed my teeth at least four times, and finished it off with mouth wash. After I was done, I combed out my wet hair. I put at the least eight braids in it, so I could wear it crinkly later. When I was finished, I stepped out the bathroom feeling like money besides the queasy feeling I was getting.