Illusion

Farewell

Apart of me wants to fall back to sleep and wake up again.
What would that actually solve ?
Would it make my worries go away?
Would it change who I am?
Would it fix all my issues ?
The same answer to those questions is why I had to stay awake.
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Take a look at me and tell me if I'm everything to you?
I've loved you for much longer than I imagined and it's ruined my life so thank you.
I never thought it would be so easy to let you slip through my finger tips.
But I realized you weren't what I need so I had to let you go forever.
It's almost the hardest thing I've done , besides letting you in.
I've already watched myself watch herself destroy herself .
So this is where I finally let you out the door .
This is goodbye , but first thank you.
Thank you for the sleepless nights , the times I couldn't concentrate in class, days where I wasn't myself and thank you for being you.

I wouldn't go back and change a thing about what you've brought into my life because I know it wasn't your intent.

But I am not God so I will forsake you and leave you just as the Bible said I would.

I can't allow you to poison me any longer and this force is like cancer.

I can't love myself because you promised you were the only thing capable of doing that for me.
So I let you but you gave me a disease that I am going to rid myself of right here right now.

I wish you the best , I hope you come to your senses and stop attracting yourself to amazing people like me.

It was a lesson learned , another step forward , and me takin both feet and choosing a side.

The side without you on it ... thank you... you're someone else's problem now.