Illusion

The Ache

Sitting with my back against the wall
Trying to make these feelings dissolve
But it's like asking an addict
To stop using
Baby boy I've got the blues and
This pain shit is just temporary
Even though I thought I'd be the girl you'd marry
I guess love makes us very weary
But this feeling isn't ordinary
We're young yea I know that
But I'm trying to just get back
To the shores that stretched forever
And the storms that were never
Existent in my place
My pain just came out the gate
Swinging at everything in its path
Trying to get a grasp
On the beast that made her
Portray such toxic behavior
She was once a thing called love
That was wrapped and dropped from above
But time took its toll
The love thing grew old
No stories to be told
Just I don't wanna be with you
I gotta go
I won't force you to stay
But please take back this ache
Of feeling like I need you
Just so I won't think of you
Pain is only temporary
Even though I thought I'd be the girl you'd marry
I guess loves makes us very weary
But this feeling isn't ordinary.
I want you to know
What you've caused to grow
Don't mean to play the blame game
But boy you've got it made
You see nothing stopping you
Until someone makes you feel blue
And one day you'll feel what I feel
But I pray to God that you will heal
I don't wish that on your life
I ask that God uses his might
To cause nothing but great wealth
And the surveillance of your health
I want you to grow and never stop
Love god until you're not
Who I found you to be
My biggest fear internally
Pain is only temporary
Even though I thought I'd be the girl you'd marry
I guess loves makes us very weary
But this feeling isn't ordinary.