Illusion

Love you to my grave

If I had a moment of silence for how much I've been hurt I'd never speak again .
Relationships come, they grow, and the bond becomes a fence
One that I can't jump if I tried
So I sit there and I cry
Because it's too hard to reach
Something that's not for me
When I saw you
I thought God was like "that's you dawg"
But I was afraid to open up
Once I did I lost my luck
The luck I had with containment
How I could just restrain it
Hold back from falling
But you oh my darling
You swept me off my feet
And put me afloat on a sea
Where there were no harmful creatures
Holy Spirit can you teach us
To let go if it's meant
Of all the time we've spent
Or take care of what we've got
Cause this love thing is a lot
I can't take another L
No more stories for me to tell
My daughter will never know
Of the hurt I had to see
Back when we used to be
The only mommy that she sees
My son will look up to his father
Whose not the image of his father
I guess it's just scary
That I thought you were for me
Maybe you are
But times are so hard
I don't know if I can wait
My soul is accustomed to the ache
Of being left
Because y'all are never right
For me so save me this last
Dance with my past
I can't see those boys anymore
My love is knocking at your door
Let me in let me in
I'm burning from within
Is your house open to me
Can I come inside and see
Look
Here's a warm towel for my wounds
A butterfly and a cocoon
Stitches for the cuts
My soul got from every blunt
I help up to my lips
Your hands around my hips
Drawing me closer
Boy I don't want this to be over
So say something please
Cause I'm more inclined to leave
If it never gets better
You won't be a story but a feather
To the wings that I'll grow
And I'll put on a show
Of something ugly rising above
My issues will reflect those of a dove
Simply
Nonexistent
Boy oh boy why won't you listen
It's a sea saw with you
God please show me the truth
Is he for me or not
Cause these worries made a clot
In my aorta it's not pumping
Emergency room
"She needs oxygen"
"Her throat is closing"
"Clear....."