jimins pov-
We all woke up the next day to see that the rain has calmed for a bit . With each of us being broken or worried in our own ways , we all went to a small restaurant that was a few miles away where we all were staying . It was comforting in some way to people who were new to it , but for all of us it was just a small building that tried to put our thoughts into a chest . I sat next to Namjoon and tried not to make any eye contact with anyone at the table , it was already uncomfortable . I scanned everyone's faces quickly and saw that they were all tired and thinking of other things rather than on what they will eat this morning . My eyes stopped at someone , Yoongi .
Just by looking at him for a split second you could see all of the emotions that he was trying to hide . Distress , being broken , but the 'emotion' that his face that hurt me the most was his emptiness . It hurt so much just seeing him like this . I felt something go down my cheek along with Taehyung saying my name . It all felt distant for me . I looked at Taehyung and saw his face looking at me with worry . I quickly scanned my eyes over the others and they all were worried as well . I quickly got up and said that I needed some fresh air . I started walking to the door , but I heard footsteps behind me . Once the door was opened and I was out in the sprinkling rain , I turned around to see Namjoon hyung . He seemed stressed at the moment , but then looked at me with a stern face that was slightly filled with concern .
He asked me if I was alright and if I was comfortable on telling him what was wrong . I broke down once again . "I'm so stupid ." I said over and over again while he comforted me with one of his hugs . My heart felt like it was being torn out of my body, even that would be better than how I currently feel, it was a never ending pain like how Sisyphus felt when he would never die when the vultures fed off of his organs and skin . Never ending pain and torture that was put by a god of all gods . Zeus will help many , but injure others as well . Just how I felt when I could only think of him . The vultures are eating me alive over and over again . Just because of a mistake of not loving Yoongi .
The vultures were put there to give me the pain of thousands of people . With Zeus laughing at my pain for doing something horribly wrong . I tried to tell Namjoon this but nothing came out , just hiccups and sob,over and over again, like a children's rhyme. With a small miracle , he understood what I was trying to say and was comforting me even more than before . I felt dirty like I have sinned . I tried to push him away and once I succeeded , I saw a figure running out of the restaurant to the sea that was the landscape for the painted portrait of today so far . It was Yoongi . I tried to call out to him and run after him , but nothing came out . I was once again being pushed down by the big boulder , like Sisyphus . Out of the corner of my eye , I saw another body run after him . It was Jungkook .
Rage filled my mind and body . I wanted to punch Jungkook for going after Yoongi . I wanted to hurt him , but I felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked back to see Namjoon giving me a look that was saying that I should not be thinking of deceiving thoughts and just open my eyes to see that Jungkook was there to help Yoongi . 'But why did I feel jealous of Jungkook? I was the one who did the actual sin.' I calmed a bit and went back to my broken self that I turned into yesterday . No one can help me now , only my angel who was in pain as well , Yoongi please forgive me .
yoongi's pov -
I saw how everyone was not the best this morning . With the depressing weather and with the events that happened yesterday , we were all tired in our own ways . I tried to keep my head down or concentrate on the menu , but nothing worked . I heard Taehyung's voice call for Jimin and I looked up to see Jimin walking out in tears and Namjoon going out to comfort him . Rage entered me and I slammed my fist on the table , which caught everyone's attention . Jungkook tried to speak to me , while the others tried to calm me down . I could only see my vision fading away and feel my blood pulsating at an alarming pace .
I got up and ran out of the restaurant to see out of the corner of my eye , Jimin pulling away from Namjoon and hear Jungkook's voice calling out to me . I kept on running until I was close to the seashore . All I could hear was my unstable breathing and Jungkook saying over and over again if i was okay . I screamed . I screamed and yelled in anger . I started to kick the sand everywhere and throw whatever I could find into the sea . Jungkook frantically tried to stop me but i pushed him away . I saw him fall onto some glass and look at me with pain and horror in his eyes . He quickly got up and pushed me to try to get me out of this rage .
It got me even more worked up that I did something I never thought I would do to Jungkook . I punched him . My fist charged at him in such a quick motion that the pain in my knuckles got to me a few seconds after I had done the damage . He looked down and spit some blood out of his mouth . He looked at me in a way that i have never seen him . He wanted me to be in pain as well . Once I realized it , he had already swung at me . I could only hear a ringing noise when I fell down to the sand .
I heard faint yells and some screams , but they didn't matter to me . All I wanted was to sleep and never wake up again . I then closed my eyes and dropped my head into the wet sand . I was out and somewhere else , not coming back for a few hours or days or weeks , but it was enough for me to finally dream of me having my lover in my arms , with everything being extravagant . But then again , it was only a dream that will never happen again.
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First Snow
Fanfiction"please don't leave me for him" as tears streamed down my face~ This is a BTS and EXO fanfic. This story will make you realize the true agony of heartbreak and betrayal. You will never be able to put down your phone when you're reading this. This is...